Life
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Okay. I'll just say it straight. My grades suck. They really suck. Like imagine your grades being so bad, but not bad enough to fail, but you might as well have failed anyway because your parents will make it seem 100% times worse--but what's worse in this situation is that I can't blame them.
When will I ever be proud of my grades? What does this say of my course-choice? Or maybe it's just me? I'm just too lazy. Why am I so lazy???????? Nikki, stop being lazy and distracted!!! I am too distracted. Way too distracted.
This is going to making my freedom for second year very hazy. I need to step up. WAY UP. Like WAYWAYWAY up. Like DAMN-I-CAN'T-SEE-THAT-FAR-UP high. Geeze. Like dammit. :|
I don't know what's going to happen anymore. I just know that I have to rise higher than this. The way I'm living now is not right. I have to cut so parts out. I have to balance myself. I have to level my priorities.
Life, please prepare me for the worst. I hope the repercussions will have mercy.
What I hate is that I'm abroad right now when I'm in the mood to fix parts of my life, like my room, or books, but I can't do that now. I only have a fiction book to read, which I feel guilty reading because it distracts me from the truth...
Okay. When I get home, I need to fix my life. Summer class starts the day after I get home. I will make the most out of summer. I will aim for perfection. I HAVE TO AIM FOR PERFECTION.
Nikki.
STOP SLACKING. PUSH YOURSELF TO THE LIMIT. STOP WATCHING SERIES. STOPSTOPSTOP It's destorying you. You can do way better without distractions. PRODUCTIVITY.
DO YOU WANT TO JTA OR NOT???? JUNIOR TERM ABROAD IS NOT IMPOSSIBLE.
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