Gone Away
So he left yesterday for Basic Training.
I feel incomplete. I can't sleep. I can hardly eat, and when I do, I can't keep it down very long.
Last night whenever I rolled over I'd expect to feel him next to me, but he wasn't. I miss holding him, I miss snuggling with him, I miss kissing him. I just miss him over all.
It's somewhat strange; I'm not used to feeling this way. Usually I have control over my emotions and how I feel, but as of now, I feel like I'm not in control of anything.
I know nothing's going to happen, and he'll be home in 3 months, but we've not been apart since we've been together. I want him safe, I know he misses home (and me), I'm afraid the drill sargents will be too mean (lol, I know, that's so lame, but I can't help it.) I've just been freaking out for nothing.
I just want him back and want him safe.
THE MILITARY STOLE MY BOYFRIEND!!!
Kylie's coming over to spend the night so I don't feel so lonely, but it won't be the same.
I'm off to go mope some more.