RP LOG [Complete]
Who: Matsuda errandboimatsu and Duo elltwoshinigami
When: Right after this since Matsuda asked Duo to come over. (Wednesday)
Where: Matsuda's Apartment
Why: Learning more about each other and right after Matsuda had said that he will stay with Duo,
Rating: BL! PG no one really curses at all.
This is a very long log! XD but It is very fluffy and tons of male/male kissing and cuddling :3
As Duo made his way from the warehouse over to Matsuda's apartment, he couldn't help feeling . . . relieved. Really, incredibly relieved. He'd been honestly worried when he'd found out that Matsuda had thought that he was at least eighteen; he had thought that he'd just completely screwed everything up and he was still surprised that he hadn't realized this all sooner. But, then again, the man had the altogether frightening ability to completely disarm the Gundam pilot -- the boy who called himself Shinigami and used his Gundam, Deathscythe Hell, to strike unmitigated fear into the hearts of battle-hardened soldiers before sending them on their way to hell. If it had been anyone else in his own fandom, Duo would have cut and run long ago because he just couldn't take the chance but . . . it was Matsuda, and there was no doubt in the boy's mind that he was not only trustworthy, but that he would be safe within his own fandom. Besides, he understood and seemed willing enough to accept Duo's situation with Heero, and that was a damn hard thing to do for most people, so he'd been unable to keep the smile off of his face when the man had told him that he wanted to keep going and give it a try, keeping in the back of his mind the idea that maybe people would start noticing him more now if they thought he was unavailable. Duo hopped up the stairs to Matsuda's apartment and knocked on the door, smiling to himself and still unable to stop.
Matsuda had hopped into the shower as soon as he could since he knew he needed one. He couldn't stop thinking that it was a big decision for him to make. But he didn't seem all too worried about it since really he didn't have much to lose. Ryuzaki was the only one that could kick him off the team if he thought he was a danger to him and the others working on the case. Matsuda sighed slightly as he finished but smiled widely. He dressed into a more comfortable attire with an old pair of jeans and a dark blue button down short sleeve shirt. Upon hearing the knock he was still drying off his hair as he walked over towards it, opening it up he smiled even more. "Hey..."
Looking at the expression on the man's face just made Duo's smile widen. "Hey," he replied. He normally would have waited to be invited in, but considering their earlier conversation and the fact that Matsuda had invited him over, he sort of doubted that the man would mind terrible when he stepped inside and closed the door behind him. Duo was remembering what Matsuda had told him and he was looking at him, obviously freshly out of the shower, with his hair still damp and he just couldn't help himself -- he reached up, one hand grabbing the collar of Matsuda's shirt and the other arm hooking around his neck as he kissed him.
"Mmnn..." Matsuda's eyes widened a bit before softening at the kiss. He slowly wrapped his arms around the other's waist kissing him back sweetly. He slowly relaxed as he kept a hold of Duo he didn't mind this he wanted to keep it for as long as he could or until he could find someone just like Duo had for him. The man moved the other slightly closer to him.
Duo didn't fight a bit when he was pulled closer, just tightened his arm around Matsuda's neck and, a second later, lifted up onto his tiptoes and brought his other arm to join the first one around the man's neck. It was just . . . really nice, and Duo was quickly slipping into that relaxed state he only realized afterwards that he slipped into when he was around Matsuda while they were alone. It was a relief to his overworked senses, even if he didn't realize it at the time. When they finally parted, he just kept their foreheads pressed together, his eyes closed and his lips turned up in a small smile. "Nice to see ya," he teased.
Matsuda flushed a bit as he opened his eyes partly to look at Duo. He kept his arms around his waist tightening a bit before slowly letting go of him. "It's nice to see you too.." He slowly rubbed their noses together before pulling the rest of the way. He grabbed hold of Duo's hand leading him towards the couch. "But you know that would be a very nice welcome almost every time."
Duo chuckled and returned the nuzzling, allowing his eyes to open and then himself to be tugged off towards the couch. "I'm sure that can be arranged," he said. He wondered at how easy it was to pretend that he wasn't a soldier in the middle of a war while he was there; that he was just a normal civilian spending some time with his boyfriend, even they just so happened to be twelve years apart and that they weren't just biding their time until they came face to face with that person that would occupy their thoughts for the rest of their lives.
Matsuda sat down on the couch before tugging Duo down onto his lap while wrapping his arms around his waist. "I'm sure it could be arranged as well. You know.. you do look cute when your asleep." He replied as he leaned back against the couch as he shift a bit so that the other could make himself comfortable. The man smiled as he relaxed a bit more and just kept everything else out of his mind. "Besides.. I'm sure there are things that we can't tell each other because of our jobs."
Matsuda managed to make the pilot blush faintly when he pretty much admitted to watching him sleep when he'd been there a couple of nights ago, but Duo just curled up in his lap and let the man hold him. It wasn't all that unusual considering that most of his partners had decided he'd be the submissive one in the relationship and the boy didn't really mind in the least, as much as he enjoyed taking the other role once in a while. "That is very true," he agreed, "which is why I think we should just decide right now not t'talk about it unless we have to."
"Fine by me. Are you comfortable? Or would you rather just be sitting on the couch?" Matsuda asked with a blush as he looks slightly up at Duo. He kept a hold around Duo's waist as he smiled widely at him. The man didn't mind what kind of relationship he was in he was just trying something out considering he didn't want to be sitting on Duo. Considering weights and such of course he would have moved Duo onto his lap rather then him trying to sit on him. Matsuda grinned slightly as his finger tips started to move lightly up his sides.
Duo just smiled and shook his head, stealing a small kiss before resting his head against Matsuda's shoulder. "I am perfectly comfortable," he said, shivering slightly with the touches to his sides. "Tell me when your legs start fallin' asleep, though; then I'll move." For now, though, he was perfectly comfortable and he feathered a few kisses along the man's neck where his head was resting.
Matsuda chuckled slightly as he continued to move his fingertips up his sides. He shivered slightly at the kisses on his neck as he shifted. The man gripped his hips slightly while smiling slightly. "Mm.. Duo.."
The boy was clearly pleased with the reaction and he cupped the other side of Matsuda's neck and gently brushing his thumb over it. He shifted when the man did, hoping he wasn't hurting him or making him uncomfortable; thinking about it for a moment, he discreetly pulled the gun out from the back of his pants (he was much too careful to even just go there without the protection) and set it almost soundlessly down on the coffee table before turning his attention entirely back to the man whose lap he was in. "Yes, Matsuda?" he asked teasingly.
The man moved his neck slightly against the fingers while moving his head to the side. He shivered a bit more as he kept his hands on Duo's sides. Matsuda side glanced him as he took in a breath. "If you keep doing that.. it might drive me a bit more insane.."
"More insane, huh?" Duo asked teasingly, deliberately keeping up the movement and adding a little nuzzling the other side of his neck. "That'd kinda imply that you were already insane, wouldn't it? Not sure I believe that. Too sweet t'be insane."
"Nn... than really... uncomfortable?" Matsuda replied as he shifted a bit more. He did consider it a week spot of his since it would generally make him feel really good. The man moved his hands up his back gently massaging at his lower back.
The pressure against his back was making Duo have a hard time choke back a few moans since sleeping in the cockpit of Deathscythe Hell or on the hard floor of the warehouse was making him rather stiff. As good as it felt, though, Matsuda's words made him quickly back off from the nuzzling and the stroking, instead stilling his fingers and reaching up to press a kiss to the man's cheek. "Sorry."
Matsuda chuckled as he noticed the other to back off. He continued his slow massage on the other's lower back before slowly moving it up. "It's alright.. just don't focus on the neck so much, ne?" He smiled as he turned his head a bit and kissed him quickly on the lips.
"I can do that," Duo replied with a grin, lifting his hand up to Matsuda's cheek, using it to pull him in for a long, drawn out kiss which he fully intended to leave the man at least a little disoriented afterwards. For absolutely no other reason than to see if he could manage it; and because he was very much enjoying himself, arching into those hands as they moved up and along his back.
Matsuda slightly moaned as he kissed him back. He moved his hands more up his back before moving them back down. He shifted his weight as he leaned up into him a bit as he parted his lips slightly. He moved his hands to the other's hips gripping them gently. "Mmm..."
Duo was a little disappointed to lose the massage he'd been getting, but he wasn't about to stop the kiss just for that. He deepened it instead when he felt Matsuda's lips part, the same hand that had been cupping the man's cheek sliding up and into his hair instead while he pressed just that much closer to him.
Matsuda pressed back against him as he slowly rubbed at his hips. He broke the kiss his while panting slightly. His flushed deeply before blinking a couple of times. "Mmm... well..." He smiled as he took in a slight breath before looking up at him. "That was really good.."
Duo had to take a moment as well before he opened his eyes and gave the man a cocky little grin that still held quite a bit of warmth to it as he slowly relaxed in Matsuda's lap. "It was," he agreed, nudging the man's nose with his own and rather pleased that he'd decided to stick it out with the boy. "So, Matsuda Touta," he said, shifting his way out of the man's lap before his legs fell asleep, "tell me about yerself." Duo settled down onto the couch and leaned slightly against Matsuda.
Matsuda shifted his legs as the other repositioned himself onto the couch. As he felt the other lean against him he moved so that he could lean back against Duo. He chuckled as he heard the other ask. "There's not much to say about myself..."
"Awww, c'mon," Duo prodded lightly, "everyone's got a story." The boy really was interested, but he wouldn't push if Matsuda really didn't want to talk about it. He knew enough about not wanting to talk about a certain part of your past, whether it be painful or just shameful. Still, he wanted to know, if Matsuda was willing to tell him. "I'll tell you mine, if you tell me yours," he added as an extra incentive.
Matsuda smiled as he looked at the other. He cuddled a bit closer against Duo as he looked down at the floor. He moved a hand on top of the others. "There's nothing really big about it.. it was generally a normal life.. loving parents... got through school alright have the job that I wanted... yet I'm giving my life to this job because of what could happen within it. I'm not as useful at it like I should be though. But I at least try to be."
Duo turned his hand over so that he could close his hand around the man's, twining their fingers together as he listened to him talk. "An honorable way t'be," he said once Matsuda was through, teasing a bit, but no less sincere because of it. He considered asking what it was that was so important that Matsuda was working on, but he refrained, assuming that that was probably one of those things that was too important for him to share with the pilot.
Matsuda tightened his hold on the other's hand as he nuzzled closer to him. "So says you... I guess you could say that in school I cared about grades and such. But now that I'm older it's like what else was there besides doing homework?" He chuckled as he relaxed a bit more. He sighed softly before shifting closer towards Duo. "Besides, I'm sure you have a lot more to tell me about yourself."
Duo grinned and leaned up to press a brief kiss to Matsuda's throat. "Well, fer one thing, I didn't go to school," he said, continuing on the thread that Matsuda had started but keeping a light tone to his voice to make sure that he understood that it wasn't something that he needed pity for. "Actually, I did, but just fer a couple-a months."
"Only a couple of months..." Matsuda chuckled a bit as he shifted a slight bit moving away from Duo. He pushed Duo over gently toward the arm of the couch before nuzzling up against him. "So besides skipping out on school.. you are still doing what you think is right.. so it's not at all that bad."
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Duo easily let himself be moved around, easing himself back against the couch arm and lifting his own arms around Matsuda's neck. He didn't bother telling the man that he hadn't been "skipping out" on school, he hadn't even known that such a thing existed for several years. He'd hated it when Sister Helen and Father Maxwell had tried to send him, and since the only reason he'd gone in the first place had been because of them, afterwards, he had absolutely no reason to go. "I don't think not goin' to school is what'd make it all that bad anyway," he said with a small chuckle.
"No it doesn't. You are still smart.. and that's all that matters. You got some kind of education. But that doesn't really matter.." Matsuda replied as he looked up at Duo with a smile. He wrapped his arms around the other's waist before carefully moving them so that Duo was on top. "Besides that can't be all to you.."
"Guess not," Duo replied teasingly, settling into the new position just as easily with his head nestled comfortably under Matsuda's chin. "Lessee," he said, mostly to himself, going back on his life and wondering where to start. "My education came from the streets, pretty much. But I had some real book education after I started gettin' trained to fly Scythe -- can't get by on just street smarts for that kinda thing."
"Street smarts is always a good thing though. But having some kind of book smart is even better." He kept his arms around Duo's waist as he felt the other relax into the new position. Matsuda shifted a bit as he made himself close his lips together. "I'll let you finish talking before I start again."
That made Duo chuckle. "Y'don't hafta," he said, but he just let a hand stroke lightly over Matsuda's chest as he continued on with his own personal story. "What kinda smarts y'need is all dependant on what you wanna do with your life. But yeah, book smarts usually help out at least a little." He laughed at a sudden thought, remembering another little bit of his educational past. "Y'know, they were teachin' me to be a priest for a while there, too."
"Oh really.. how interesting. Being a priest you do know that most religions would be against this." Matsuda chuckled a bit as he hugged the other in a tight but gentle firm grasp. He moved his head down and kissed his forehead sweetly. He shut his eyes as he made himself a little bit more comfortable on the couch.
Duo chuckled again and shifted up slightly so that he could return that kiss to the man's lips. "Prolly one-a the really good reasons those plans fell through," he replied. One of many good reasons. Duo had never thought that he would make a good priest and could never figure out what in the world Father Maxwell had seen in him that made him think it was the life for him. "And really, could you see me as a priest? Goin' around preachin' about god and how all the sinners're goin' to hell? I don't think so."
Matsuda chuckled as he heard the other go on. He shrugged as he nuzzled his face into his hair a bit. He smiled sweetly as he held the other close. "Well Duo, who really wanted you to become a priest in the first place?" He asked softly as he looked at him knowing he wasn't getting the whole information out of him but only little bits.
Well, those questions were going to come up sooner or later, and Duo hadn't wanted to try and hide his past from Matsuda, per se, he just wasn't sure how the man was going to take it -- the usual reaction was pity, but the pilot would be damned before he accepted pit from anyone just because of how he'd grown up. "Name was Father Maxwell," he replied, his smile softening a touch as he remembered the man. "Ran the orphanage I stayed at for a while."
"Ah, so that would explain part of it.. he was just trying to be a parent. It's what parenting does, ne? They look out for their children and think this is the best way for you to go. It may not be something you like to do or want to do but they want you to give it a try and see how it works." Matsuda smiled softly as his eyes portrayed some pity but at the same time something else. A warmth of a gentle kind of feeling that he knew he was not going to voice out nor really show much of. The man hugged the other a bit before continuing on. "I bet he was a very kind man to think that you could be a priest someday.. but I bet you knew that you didn't see yourself becoming one at all."
A few years ago, and Duo would have retorted, rather angrily, that he didn't need any damn parents, he was fine on his own! However, despite the fact that he still didn't believe he needed parents, Duo hadn't been quite so defensive about it for a while. He wondered what exactly had prompted the hug, but didn't question it, just went on. "He was," the boy agreed, "but, like I told 'im, it's stupid t'be a priest when you don't even believe in god."
Matsuda nodded in agreement as he looked at the other. "Mmmhmm.. that is very true. But even so he was trying to be a parent for for you. Or at least be there to protect you. It happens.. but look how you turned out to be.." He smiled a bit as the next few sentences coming out of him would be teases. "A teenaged boy fooling around with a grown man.. who is just a big child at heart."
Duo grinned at that, taking the slight change of topic and running with it. He scooted up just a little so that he was looking straight down into Matsuda's face. "No, I don't believe Father Maxwell or Sister Helen could've figured out that I'd end up like this," he said, a bit of mischief in his tone. Then, he bent down and kissed the man again, banishing the memories of the Father and Sister.
Matsuda kissed the other back as he hands gently roamed up his back. He knew that Duo must have pained inside each time he brought up a subject such as that. But he knew how to quickly change subjects if it was open or not. The man grew into subject changing so much that he could rant on about two things at once and not make any sense in the end for now he didn't care.
Duo moaned softly as the man returned the kiss and he brushed a hand through Matsuda's hair while the other clenched slightly on his shirt. This was much more enjoyable than digging up old, painful memories, since it was easier to get pissed and offensive to cover up the guilt and hurt, but he couldn't do that with Matsuda, so the kissing was a perfectly fine distraction.
Matsuda continued to kiss the other before breaking the kiss gently. He rubbed at the others back before nuzzling his nose with his. "Mmm.. I believe we either move this cuddling bit to the bedroom before I end up falling asleep out here.. and sometimes.. my back doesn't agree with me when I sleep on this comfy couch as it is."
The bed sounded like a good idea, but it also spoke of other things that might happen, and that was taking a certain step and making a certian statement that Duo wasn't quite ready to make with Matsuda (if he ever would be able to). "Well then," he said, sliding off of the man and into what little space remained between Matsuda and the back of the couch, "I'd hate t'be a pain in the back. I don't mind it, though, it's a helluva lot more comfortable than Scythe's cockpit."
Matsuda raised an eyebrow while staring at Duo. The man smiled while crossing his arms over his chest as he shook his head. He stayed on the couch getting a bit more comfortable. "Then I'm not going anywhere.. I don't know what would make you think of sex if I asked you if you wanted to come move it to the bed. Cuddling and such is easier there then anyway.. I'm not asking you to sleep with me.. I'm asking more of share the bed with me." He replied as he shut his eyes refusing to move.
Duo raised an eyebrow at the man, tempted to point out that no one had said anything about sex, but he had been thinking it -- it wasn't a far leap to make when you were cuddling in bed. Then again, location didn't really necessarily matter either and they were just as likely to end up like that on the couch as they were on the bed. With a small smirk to himself, Duo climbed over Matsuda, dropping a kiss to his lips along the way, and then sauntered over to the bedroom, turning around in the doorway at the last minute and grinning at Matsuda. "So you comin' or not?"
Matsuda chuckled as he sat up on the couch. He smiled over at the teen before slowly getting up and over towards Duo. As he got closer he moved his arms out to wrap them around Duo's waist. "Besides.. it's a bit too fast for that. Even if you didn't say it. I'm sure you were thinking it. But that's alright if you were.. I just want you to know that it's safe." He leans in and kisses him softly on the cheek as he pulls him closer.
Too fast was right, Duo couldn't have agreed more and he lifted his hands to Matsuda's shoulders as he came up to him. "What makes you so sure of what I was thinkin'?" he asked teasingly, wondering for the hundredth time just how the man didn't already have someone to love. "Maybe I thought it'd make it too easy on you t'murder me in my sleep, huh?"
"You're a silly one. I would never murder you in your sleep. If I wanted to do that.. I would have done it by now." Matsuda teased back as he slowly lead the teen back and into the bedroom. He let go of the other as he walked over towards the bed. The man sat down on the edge of the bed he stretched a bit before falling backward onto it with a soft thump.
Duo snickered and let Matsuda go to sit on the bed. "Oh really?" he asked, the threat in his voice obviously feigned as he followed the man over, deciding not to press his luck and simply sitting down beside him instead of on top of him. "Y'really think you could? I beg to differ." Duo lifted his face just a bit so that his nose was sticking up in the air in the very image of a cocky little brat. "I went through some-a the most intense trainin' on Earth or the Colonies. You're not gonna catch me off-guard, even in my sleep."
Matsuda smiled deeply as he moved fully on to the bed. He nuzzled his head into the pillow as he moved a hand over Duo's. "But you kind of snore cutely in your sleep. That and it's easy to tell when someone is really asleep." He pulled at Duo wanting him to come down on the other side of him as he got a little bit more comfortable before letting out a slight yawn.
"Now that is just plain not true," Duo objected, moving over onto the bed so that he was lying beside the man. "I would never do something so undignified as snore." It was things like that that could get you into a lot of trouble when you were trying to hide. The boy reached up and tapped Matsuda's nose as he yawned. "Sounds like it's past your bedtime."
Matsuda smiled as he chuckled a bit. "Mmm.. you wouldn't have guessed, ne? I'm sure you don't realize that you snore.. I think you only snore when you sure no one is going to get you." He replied with a slight tease as he grabbed hold of Duo's finger as he shifted a bit. His tired eyes looked up at the other as his hand grabbed hold of the other's arm pulling him down gently. "But you could lay down.."
"I could," Duo replied with a small grin. Before he did so, he toed off his shoes, then he curled up next to the man, not even thinking to comment on the bit about him being sure that no one was going to "get him." It was a worry that was always in mind, but even he had to admit that it tended to be pushed to the back of his mind when he was alone with Matsuda. Duo draped an arm across the man and shifted a bit closer.
Matsuda shifted closer towards Duo while nuzzling against him a bit as he half closed his eyes. He didn't care if someone found out. He knew he could like Duo's company more and he did. The man sighed softly before yawning again. "Well... I guess there's no need for covers just yet. Besides I know it'll get cold later. For now I think sleep would be the best thing." He shifted a bit before cuddling closer towards Duo shutting his eyes at the last bit.
When: Right after this since Matsuda asked Duo to come over. (Wednesday)
Where: Matsuda's Apartment
Why: Learning more about each other and right after Matsuda had said that he will stay with Duo,
Rating: BL! PG no one really curses at all.
This is a very long log! XD but It is very fluffy and tons of male/male kissing and cuddling :3
As Duo made his way from the warehouse over to Matsuda's apartment, he couldn't help feeling . . . relieved. Really, incredibly relieved. He'd been honestly worried when he'd found out that Matsuda had thought that he was at least eighteen; he had thought that he'd just completely screwed everything up and he was still surprised that he hadn't realized this all sooner. But, then again, the man had the altogether frightening ability to completely disarm the Gundam pilot -- the boy who called himself Shinigami and used his Gundam, Deathscythe Hell, to strike unmitigated fear into the hearts of battle-hardened soldiers before sending them on their way to hell. If it had been anyone else in his own fandom, Duo would have cut and run long ago because he just couldn't take the chance but . . . it was Matsuda, and there was no doubt in the boy's mind that he was not only trustworthy, but that he would be safe within his own fandom. Besides, he understood and seemed willing enough to accept Duo's situation with Heero, and that was a damn hard thing to do for most people, so he'd been unable to keep the smile off of his face when the man had told him that he wanted to keep going and give it a try, keeping in the back of his mind the idea that maybe people would start noticing him more now if they thought he was unavailable. Duo hopped up the stairs to Matsuda's apartment and knocked on the door, smiling to himself and still unable to stop.
Matsuda had hopped into the shower as soon as he could since he knew he needed one. He couldn't stop thinking that it was a big decision for him to make. But he didn't seem all too worried about it since really he didn't have much to lose. Ryuzaki was the only one that could kick him off the team if he thought he was a danger to him and the others working on the case. Matsuda sighed slightly as he finished but smiled widely. He dressed into a more comfortable attire with an old pair of jeans and a dark blue button down short sleeve shirt. Upon hearing the knock he was still drying off his hair as he walked over towards it, opening it up he smiled even more. "Hey..."
Looking at the expression on the man's face just made Duo's smile widen. "Hey," he replied. He normally would have waited to be invited in, but considering their earlier conversation and the fact that Matsuda had invited him over, he sort of doubted that the man would mind terrible when he stepped inside and closed the door behind him. Duo was remembering what Matsuda had told him and he was looking at him, obviously freshly out of the shower, with his hair still damp and he just couldn't help himself -- he reached up, one hand grabbing the collar of Matsuda's shirt and the other arm hooking around his neck as he kissed him.
"Mmnn..." Matsuda's eyes widened a bit before softening at the kiss. He slowly wrapped his arms around the other's waist kissing him back sweetly. He slowly relaxed as he kept a hold of Duo he didn't mind this he wanted to keep it for as long as he could or until he could find someone just like Duo had for him. The man moved the other slightly closer to him.
Duo didn't fight a bit when he was pulled closer, just tightened his arm around Matsuda's neck and, a second later, lifted up onto his tiptoes and brought his other arm to join the first one around the man's neck. It was just . . . really nice, and Duo was quickly slipping into that relaxed state he only realized afterwards that he slipped into when he was around Matsuda while they were alone. It was a relief to his overworked senses, even if he didn't realize it at the time. When they finally parted, he just kept their foreheads pressed together, his eyes closed and his lips turned up in a small smile. "Nice to see ya," he teased.
Matsuda flushed a bit as he opened his eyes partly to look at Duo. He kept his arms around his waist tightening a bit before slowly letting go of him. "It's nice to see you too.." He slowly rubbed their noses together before pulling the rest of the way. He grabbed hold of Duo's hand leading him towards the couch. "But you know that would be a very nice welcome almost every time."
Duo chuckled and returned the nuzzling, allowing his eyes to open and then himself to be tugged off towards the couch. "I'm sure that can be arranged," he said. He wondered at how easy it was to pretend that he wasn't a soldier in the middle of a war while he was there; that he was just a normal civilian spending some time with his boyfriend, even they just so happened to be twelve years apart and that they weren't just biding their time until they came face to face with that person that would occupy their thoughts for the rest of their lives.
Matsuda sat down on the couch before tugging Duo down onto his lap while wrapping his arms around his waist. "I'm sure it could be arranged as well. You know.. you do look cute when your asleep." He replied as he leaned back against the couch as he shift a bit so that the other could make himself comfortable. The man smiled as he relaxed a bit more and just kept everything else out of his mind. "Besides.. I'm sure there are things that we can't tell each other because of our jobs."
Matsuda managed to make the pilot blush faintly when he pretty much admitted to watching him sleep when he'd been there a couple of nights ago, but Duo just curled up in his lap and let the man hold him. It wasn't all that unusual considering that most of his partners had decided he'd be the submissive one in the relationship and the boy didn't really mind in the least, as much as he enjoyed taking the other role once in a while. "That is very true," he agreed, "which is why I think we should just decide right now not t'talk about it unless we have to."
"Fine by me. Are you comfortable? Or would you rather just be sitting on the couch?" Matsuda asked with a blush as he looks slightly up at Duo. He kept a hold around Duo's waist as he smiled widely at him. The man didn't mind what kind of relationship he was in he was just trying something out considering he didn't want to be sitting on Duo. Considering weights and such of course he would have moved Duo onto his lap rather then him trying to sit on him. Matsuda grinned slightly as his finger tips started to move lightly up his sides.
Duo just smiled and shook his head, stealing a small kiss before resting his head against Matsuda's shoulder. "I am perfectly comfortable," he said, shivering slightly with the touches to his sides. "Tell me when your legs start fallin' asleep, though; then I'll move." For now, though, he was perfectly comfortable and he feathered a few kisses along the man's neck where his head was resting.
Matsuda chuckled slightly as he continued to move his fingertips up his sides. He shivered slightly at the kisses on his neck as he shifted. The man gripped his hips slightly while smiling slightly. "Mm.. Duo.."
The boy was clearly pleased with the reaction and he cupped the other side of Matsuda's neck and gently brushing his thumb over it. He shifted when the man did, hoping he wasn't hurting him or making him uncomfortable; thinking about it for a moment, he discreetly pulled the gun out from the back of his pants (he was much too careful to even just go there without the protection) and set it almost soundlessly down on the coffee table before turning his attention entirely back to the man whose lap he was in. "Yes, Matsuda?" he asked teasingly.
The man moved his neck slightly against the fingers while moving his head to the side. He shivered a bit more as he kept his hands on Duo's sides. Matsuda side glanced him as he took in a breath. "If you keep doing that.. it might drive me a bit more insane.."
"More insane, huh?" Duo asked teasingly, deliberately keeping up the movement and adding a little nuzzling the other side of his neck. "That'd kinda imply that you were already insane, wouldn't it? Not sure I believe that. Too sweet t'be insane."
"Nn... than really... uncomfortable?" Matsuda replied as he shifted a bit more. He did consider it a week spot of his since it would generally make him feel really good. The man moved his hands up his back gently massaging at his lower back.
The pressure against his back was making Duo have a hard time choke back a few moans since sleeping in the cockpit of Deathscythe Hell or on the hard floor of the warehouse was making him rather stiff. As good as it felt, though, Matsuda's words made him quickly back off from the nuzzling and the stroking, instead stilling his fingers and reaching up to press a kiss to the man's cheek. "Sorry."
Matsuda chuckled as he noticed the other to back off. He continued his slow massage on the other's lower back before slowly moving it up. "It's alright.. just don't focus on the neck so much, ne?" He smiled as he turned his head a bit and kissed him quickly on the lips.
"I can do that," Duo replied with a grin, lifting his hand up to Matsuda's cheek, using it to pull him in for a long, drawn out kiss which he fully intended to leave the man at least a little disoriented afterwards. For absolutely no other reason than to see if he could manage it; and because he was very much enjoying himself, arching into those hands as they moved up and along his back.
Matsuda slightly moaned as he kissed him back. He moved his hands more up his back before moving them back down. He shifted his weight as he leaned up into him a bit as he parted his lips slightly. He moved his hands to the other's hips gripping them gently. "Mmm..."
Duo was a little disappointed to lose the massage he'd been getting, but he wasn't about to stop the kiss just for that. He deepened it instead when he felt Matsuda's lips part, the same hand that had been cupping the man's cheek sliding up and into his hair instead while he pressed just that much closer to him.
Matsuda pressed back against him as he slowly rubbed at his hips. He broke the kiss his while panting slightly. His flushed deeply before blinking a couple of times. "Mmm... well..." He smiled as he took in a slight breath before looking up at him. "That was really good.."
Duo had to take a moment as well before he opened his eyes and gave the man a cocky little grin that still held quite a bit of warmth to it as he slowly relaxed in Matsuda's lap. "It was," he agreed, nudging the man's nose with his own and rather pleased that he'd decided to stick it out with the boy. "So, Matsuda Touta," he said, shifting his way out of the man's lap before his legs fell asleep, "tell me about yerself." Duo settled down onto the couch and leaned slightly against Matsuda.
Matsuda shifted his legs as the other repositioned himself onto the couch. As he felt the other lean against him he moved so that he could lean back against Duo. He chuckled as he heard the other ask. "There's not much to say about myself..."
"Awww, c'mon," Duo prodded lightly, "everyone's got a story." The boy really was interested, but he wouldn't push if Matsuda really didn't want to talk about it. He knew enough about not wanting to talk about a certain part of your past, whether it be painful or just shameful. Still, he wanted to know, if Matsuda was willing to tell him. "I'll tell you mine, if you tell me yours," he added as an extra incentive.
Matsuda smiled as he looked at the other. He cuddled a bit closer against Duo as he looked down at the floor. He moved a hand on top of the others. "There's nothing really big about it.. it was generally a normal life.. loving parents... got through school alright have the job that I wanted... yet I'm giving my life to this job because of what could happen within it. I'm not as useful at it like I should be though. But I at least try to be."
Duo turned his hand over so that he could close his hand around the man's, twining their fingers together as he listened to him talk. "An honorable way t'be," he said once Matsuda was through, teasing a bit, but no less sincere because of it. He considered asking what it was that was so important that Matsuda was working on, but he refrained, assuming that that was probably one of those things that was too important for him to share with the pilot.
Matsuda tightened his hold on the other's hand as he nuzzled closer to him. "So says you... I guess you could say that in school I cared about grades and such. But now that I'm older it's like what else was there besides doing homework?" He chuckled as he relaxed a bit more. He sighed softly before shifting closer towards Duo. "Besides, I'm sure you have a lot more to tell me about yourself."
Duo grinned and leaned up to press a brief kiss to Matsuda's throat. "Well, fer one thing, I didn't go to school," he said, continuing on the thread that Matsuda had started but keeping a light tone to his voice to make sure that he understood that it wasn't something that he needed pity for. "Actually, I did, but just fer a couple-a months."
"Only a couple of months..." Matsuda chuckled a bit as he shifted a slight bit moving away from Duo. He pushed Duo over gently toward the arm of the couch before nuzzling up against him. "So besides skipping out on school.. you are still doing what you think is right.. so it's not at all that bad."
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Duo easily let himself be moved around, easing himself back against the couch arm and lifting his own arms around Matsuda's neck. He didn't bother telling the man that he hadn't been "skipping out" on school, he hadn't even known that such a thing existed for several years. He'd hated it when Sister Helen and Father Maxwell had tried to send him, and since the only reason he'd gone in the first place had been because of them, afterwards, he had absolutely no reason to go. "I don't think not goin' to school is what'd make it all that bad anyway," he said with a small chuckle.
"No it doesn't. You are still smart.. and that's all that matters. You got some kind of education. But that doesn't really matter.." Matsuda replied as he looked up at Duo with a smile. He wrapped his arms around the other's waist before carefully moving them so that Duo was on top. "Besides that can't be all to you.."
"Guess not," Duo replied teasingly, settling into the new position just as easily with his head nestled comfortably under Matsuda's chin. "Lessee," he said, mostly to himself, going back on his life and wondering where to start. "My education came from the streets, pretty much. But I had some real book education after I started gettin' trained to fly Scythe -- can't get by on just street smarts for that kinda thing."
"Street smarts is always a good thing though. But having some kind of book smart is even better." He kept his arms around Duo's waist as he felt the other relax into the new position. Matsuda shifted a bit as he made himself close his lips together. "I'll let you finish talking before I start again."
That made Duo chuckle. "Y'don't hafta," he said, but he just let a hand stroke lightly over Matsuda's chest as he continued on with his own personal story. "What kinda smarts y'need is all dependant on what you wanna do with your life. But yeah, book smarts usually help out at least a little." He laughed at a sudden thought, remembering another little bit of his educational past. "Y'know, they were teachin' me to be a priest for a while there, too."
"Oh really.. how interesting. Being a priest you do know that most religions would be against this." Matsuda chuckled a bit as he hugged the other in a tight but gentle firm grasp. He moved his head down and kissed his forehead sweetly. He shut his eyes as he made himself a little bit more comfortable on the couch.
Duo chuckled again and shifted up slightly so that he could return that kiss to the man's lips. "Prolly one-a the really good reasons those plans fell through," he replied. One of many good reasons. Duo had never thought that he would make a good priest and could never figure out what in the world Father Maxwell had seen in him that made him think it was the life for him. "And really, could you see me as a priest? Goin' around preachin' about god and how all the sinners're goin' to hell? I don't think so."
Matsuda chuckled as he heard the other go on. He shrugged as he nuzzled his face into his hair a bit. He smiled sweetly as he held the other close. "Well Duo, who really wanted you to become a priest in the first place?" He asked softly as he looked at him knowing he wasn't getting the whole information out of him but only little bits.
Well, those questions were going to come up sooner or later, and Duo hadn't wanted to try and hide his past from Matsuda, per se, he just wasn't sure how the man was going to take it -- the usual reaction was pity, but the pilot would be damned before he accepted pit from anyone just because of how he'd grown up. "Name was Father Maxwell," he replied, his smile softening a touch as he remembered the man. "Ran the orphanage I stayed at for a while."
"Ah, so that would explain part of it.. he was just trying to be a parent. It's what parenting does, ne? They look out for their children and think this is the best way for you to go. It may not be something you like to do or want to do but they want you to give it a try and see how it works." Matsuda smiled softly as his eyes portrayed some pity but at the same time something else. A warmth of a gentle kind of feeling that he knew he was not going to voice out nor really show much of. The man hugged the other a bit before continuing on. "I bet he was a very kind man to think that you could be a priest someday.. but I bet you knew that you didn't see yourself becoming one at all."
A few years ago, and Duo would have retorted, rather angrily, that he didn't need any damn parents, he was fine on his own! However, despite the fact that he still didn't believe he needed parents, Duo hadn't been quite so defensive about it for a while. He wondered what exactly had prompted the hug, but didn't question it, just went on. "He was," the boy agreed, "but, like I told 'im, it's stupid t'be a priest when you don't even believe in god."
Matsuda nodded in agreement as he looked at the other. "Mmmhmm.. that is very true. But even so he was trying to be a parent for for you. Or at least be there to protect you. It happens.. but look how you turned out to be.." He smiled a bit as the next few sentences coming out of him would be teases. "A teenaged boy fooling around with a grown man.. who is just a big child at heart."
Duo grinned at that, taking the slight change of topic and running with it. He scooted up just a little so that he was looking straight down into Matsuda's face. "No, I don't believe Father Maxwell or Sister Helen could've figured out that I'd end up like this," he said, a bit of mischief in his tone. Then, he bent down and kissed the man again, banishing the memories of the Father and Sister.
Matsuda kissed the other back as he hands gently roamed up his back. He knew that Duo must have pained inside each time he brought up a subject such as that. But he knew how to quickly change subjects if it was open or not. The man grew into subject changing so much that he could rant on about two things at once and not make any sense in the end for now he didn't care.
Duo moaned softly as the man returned the kiss and he brushed a hand through Matsuda's hair while the other clenched slightly on his shirt. This was much more enjoyable than digging up old, painful memories, since it was easier to get pissed and offensive to cover up the guilt and hurt, but he couldn't do that with Matsuda, so the kissing was a perfectly fine distraction.
Matsuda continued to kiss the other before breaking the kiss gently. He rubbed at the others back before nuzzling his nose with his. "Mmm.. I believe we either move this cuddling bit to the bedroom before I end up falling asleep out here.. and sometimes.. my back doesn't agree with me when I sleep on this comfy couch as it is."
The bed sounded like a good idea, but it also spoke of other things that might happen, and that was taking a certain step and making a certian statement that Duo wasn't quite ready to make with Matsuda (if he ever would be able to). "Well then," he said, sliding off of the man and into what little space remained between Matsuda and the back of the couch, "I'd hate t'be a pain in the back. I don't mind it, though, it's a helluva lot more comfortable than Scythe's cockpit."
Matsuda raised an eyebrow while staring at Duo. The man smiled while crossing his arms over his chest as he shook his head. He stayed on the couch getting a bit more comfortable. "Then I'm not going anywhere.. I don't know what would make you think of sex if I asked you if you wanted to come move it to the bed. Cuddling and such is easier there then anyway.. I'm not asking you to sleep with me.. I'm asking more of share the bed with me." He replied as he shut his eyes refusing to move.
Duo raised an eyebrow at the man, tempted to point out that no one had said anything about sex, but he had been thinking it -- it wasn't a far leap to make when you were cuddling in bed. Then again, location didn't really necessarily matter either and they were just as likely to end up like that on the couch as they were on the bed. With a small smirk to himself, Duo climbed over Matsuda, dropping a kiss to his lips along the way, and then sauntered over to the bedroom, turning around in the doorway at the last minute and grinning at Matsuda. "So you comin' or not?"
Matsuda chuckled as he sat up on the couch. He smiled over at the teen before slowly getting up and over towards Duo. As he got closer he moved his arms out to wrap them around Duo's waist. "Besides.. it's a bit too fast for that. Even if you didn't say it. I'm sure you were thinking it. But that's alright if you were.. I just want you to know that it's safe." He leans in and kisses him softly on the cheek as he pulls him closer.
Too fast was right, Duo couldn't have agreed more and he lifted his hands to Matsuda's shoulders as he came up to him. "What makes you so sure of what I was thinkin'?" he asked teasingly, wondering for the hundredth time just how the man didn't already have someone to love. "Maybe I thought it'd make it too easy on you t'murder me in my sleep, huh?"
"You're a silly one. I would never murder you in your sleep. If I wanted to do that.. I would have done it by now." Matsuda teased back as he slowly lead the teen back and into the bedroom. He let go of the other as he walked over towards the bed. The man sat down on the edge of the bed he stretched a bit before falling backward onto it with a soft thump.
Duo snickered and let Matsuda go to sit on the bed. "Oh really?" he asked, the threat in his voice obviously feigned as he followed the man over, deciding not to press his luck and simply sitting down beside him instead of on top of him. "Y'really think you could? I beg to differ." Duo lifted his face just a bit so that his nose was sticking up in the air in the very image of a cocky little brat. "I went through some-a the most intense trainin' on Earth or the Colonies. You're not gonna catch me off-guard, even in my sleep."
Matsuda smiled deeply as he moved fully on to the bed. He nuzzled his head into the pillow as he moved a hand over Duo's. "But you kind of snore cutely in your sleep. That and it's easy to tell when someone is really asleep." He pulled at Duo wanting him to come down on the other side of him as he got a little bit more comfortable before letting out a slight yawn.
"Now that is just plain not true," Duo objected, moving over onto the bed so that he was lying beside the man. "I would never do something so undignified as snore." It was things like that that could get you into a lot of trouble when you were trying to hide. The boy reached up and tapped Matsuda's nose as he yawned. "Sounds like it's past your bedtime."
Matsuda smiled as he chuckled a bit. "Mmm.. you wouldn't have guessed, ne? I'm sure you don't realize that you snore.. I think you only snore when you sure no one is going to get you." He replied with a slight tease as he grabbed hold of Duo's finger as he shifted a bit. His tired eyes looked up at the other as his hand grabbed hold of the other's arm pulling him down gently. "But you could lay down.."
"I could," Duo replied with a small grin. Before he did so, he toed off his shoes, then he curled up next to the man, not even thinking to comment on the bit about him being sure that no one was going to "get him." It was a worry that was always in mind, but even he had to admit that it tended to be pushed to the back of his mind when he was alone with Matsuda. Duo draped an arm across the man and shifted a bit closer.
Matsuda shifted closer towards Duo while nuzzling against him a bit as he half closed his eyes. He didn't care if someone found out. He knew he could like Duo's company more and he did. The man sighed softly before yawning again. "Well... I guess there's no need for covers just yet. Besides I know it'll get cold later. For now I think sleep would be the best thing." He shifted a bit before cuddling closer towards Duo shutting his eyes at the last bit.