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Everythings a mess. Will someone please take over this sorry excuse for a life, because I seem to handle everything so poorly. That "oh so incredible guy" was just an illusion of mine.My mind playing tricks.I'm not explaining every detail as to why it's over.It just is. And I cried and for the first time it wasen't because of the rejection, more so to do with the fact that am I blind? I'm so naive to believe that every other guy has good intentions,that he's not that Mr.Wrong. I put my heart on my sleeve and put it all out there.What do I do in the future? Hold back? Be afraid, be cynical of men?
Everyday I think about him.It doesn't help that Tara hangs out with him still through Adam her love interest.I really do miss him. I imagine after a little time to myself I'll go out with all of them again.Who knows...right now I'm pretty hurt.Why most guys seem to feel the need to lie to me I'll never know.I never asked for his heart nor did I give him mine but somehow somewhere along the way he took a lil piece.
I'm feeling empty lately .I dont talk to my parents anymore I'm either out pretending to be happy or home laying in bed. It doesn't help that my parents are riding my ass to quit school, get a job and move out....I'm not even going to get into that. Thanks for the damn support! I'm far from perfect...but to somebody I want to at least feel it.
I feel so much....and I'm now convinced it's one of my character flaws....
-*I'm jealous of you and I've never even looked you in your eyes*-
Everyday I think about him.It doesn't help that Tara hangs out with him still through Adam her love interest.I really do miss him. I imagine after a little time to myself I'll go out with all of them again.Who knows...right now I'm pretty hurt.Why most guys seem to feel the need to lie to me I'll never know.I never asked for his heart nor did I give him mine but somehow somewhere along the way he took a lil piece.
I'm feeling empty lately .I dont talk to my parents anymore I'm either out pretending to be happy or home laying in bed. It doesn't help that my parents are riding my ass to quit school, get a job and move out....I'm not even going to get into that. Thanks for the damn support! I'm far from perfect...but to somebody I want to at least feel it.
I feel so much....and I'm now convinced it's one of my character flaws....
-*I'm jealous of you and I've never even looked you in your eyes*-