Coming Down With Something
I'm getting sick.My head feels as though it weighs a ton and my stomach churns once in a while,my eyes hurt and I'm happy....I sometimes enjoy being sick.Staying in your pj's hopping from couch to couch...slowing down.I'm just going to take it easy lay in bed watch some tv until it pass's.I've been really upset lately.I decided to just let go of the whole relationship with Chris idea.Not because I ever had the guts to just ask him if there was more there but because I personally think there was nothing and that I'm more in love with the idea of being with him than I'am with him. I blew it...i went about things the wrong way.Instead of letting him get to know me and see what a great girl I'am i gave way more than i should have and than he had no need to get to know me.This all sounds horribly confusing and maybe its due to the head ache...but I dont want to go into great detail..either way I brought it on myself .He is all I think about though.I waste all my time wondering this that and the other thing and all the what ifs.I'm not one for chasing a guy.The way I see it if I didnt spark his attention to the point where he wanted to pursue it..than meh....more later