Apparently its required
So, apparently a review of the past year is expected.
I guess I'll give it to you.
In all honesty, I don't ever separate years with New Year's.
I separate it with musicals, and last year was the year of the beast.
Beauty and the Beast.
I guess BATB sums up that year rather well.
Hard to handle at first...
I was angry and bitter, and...kinda could have cared less how the musical, or my schoolwork, progressed.
Things started to change, because of the people involved, and because I could call up Nicole and Sofia to bitch about how much I hated everyone.
I started LIKING going to practice.
Then came the actual show.
I was so proud.
I guess I was a lot like that last year. Contradictory, passionate, bitchy, but a real softy on the inside.
I have yet to decide how I will change this year. Already I notice things I'm doing differently. I'm weeding out my friends almost. Its like a subconscious attempt to narrow down who I really want to continue contact with in college. I don't mean to, but I see myself doing it. And I think I'm okay with it. Someone once said to me that its sad that I hate a lot of people.
I disagree. I think this year the real me will come out. And maybe it will surprise people that I DON'T like everyone, and that I get angry A LOT. Maybe people will realize that I'm not all "flowers and bonbons" (don't ask)and that it shouldn't be my job to please everyone.
I have been so...afraid to let people down. But I've overcome that. I've matured. I can't be eternally happy, and I don't want to.
I'm happiest being me.
And if that involves being a bitch sometimes.
Too bad.
I guess I'll give it to you.
In all honesty, I don't ever separate years with New Year's.
I separate it with musicals, and last year was the year of the beast.
Beauty and the Beast.
I guess BATB sums up that year rather well.
Hard to handle at first...
I was angry and bitter, and...kinda could have cared less how the musical, or my schoolwork, progressed.
Things started to change, because of the people involved, and because I could call up Nicole and Sofia to bitch about how much I hated everyone.
I started LIKING going to practice.
Then came the actual show.
I was so proud.
I guess I was a lot like that last year. Contradictory, passionate, bitchy, but a real softy on the inside.
I have yet to decide how I will change this year. Already I notice things I'm doing differently. I'm weeding out my friends almost. Its like a subconscious attempt to narrow down who I really want to continue contact with in college. I don't mean to, but I see myself doing it. And I think I'm okay with it. Someone once said to me that its sad that I hate a lot of people.
I disagree. I think this year the real me will come out. And maybe it will surprise people that I DON'T like everyone, and that I get angry A LOT. Maybe people will realize that I'm not all "flowers and bonbons" (don't ask)and that it shouldn't be my job to please everyone.
I have been so...afraid to let people down. But I've overcome that. I've matured. I can't be eternally happy, and I don't want to.
I'm happiest being me.
And if that involves being a bitch sometimes.
Too bad.