Y-You want me to go to G-Guanajuato!?
Ahh its been a while since i've been here and man have i had a lot to think about.
recently my dad came to visit me and my sis and course we had the talk about my future. the inevitable and probbably the one topic i hate to talk about to him the most. and i guess my sister went and talked to his first and twisted her words around but basically they were this
"Everyone thinks that living here in this place is holding you back so you need a breath of fresh air and real life. So your sister and i were talking and we think it would be best for you to leave the US for six months and go to Guanajuato, Mexico "
I was shaken up I mean my dad had been trying to get me to go to Mexico for years and my sister wants to get me out of the house ( which i personally agree with)
but... going here?:
to live for six months or so seems sort of extreme.. ._.;
though later on my sister did talk to me and straightend out what had had twisted and basically said that by going there and being on my own i would have a chance to grow up and practice my mime and performance over there in front of the public in the streets since its a very touristy place and i could easily get a job since i'm bilingual showing tourists around or getting a day job and performing at night then when i come back i'll be a completely different person.
the good:
* my dad will be able to start me up with a small place to live in and will be able to help me in a pinch since he only lives 4 hrs away
* since it is a very artistic colonial town the arts are very well respected and are very forgiving and warm to newcomers so its a good starting point.
* being in a far away place i'll be better able to adjust to different kinds of people cultures , ect
The bad:
*By going over there i'm comitting myself to an artistic career which only my sister and mom fully back me up on.
I know my lover doesnt exactly approve of my artistic route too much either, and for good reason since its risky and its all up to me.
* If i dont do anything it will be wasted time.
though as my sister said the pain purpose in university for arts isnt about going to school. because it doesn't really teach you how to be an artist but it gives you connections but in the perfomance route i want to go performing in front of an audience is key then the connections.
if i do nothing nothing is going to happen and I'm 20 now i cant just sit back and expect anyone to hold my hand and lead me to a good point so I'm actually considering this...
thats not to say i'm scared shitless of the idea. But maybe a chance that drastic may either kill me or make me grow up.
maybe i'll talk to my lover about this once i'm more sure but for now i have to recollect my thoughts and really...really think about my future and start making serious choices.
I cant hold onto my youth forever....and it seems i cant wait til things get better... * sighs*
I dont know what to think...
recently my dad came to visit me and my sis and course we had the talk about my future. the inevitable and probbably the one topic i hate to talk about to him the most. and i guess my sister went and talked to his first and twisted her words around but basically they were this
"Everyone thinks that living here in this place is holding you back so you need a breath of fresh air and real life. So your sister and i were talking and we think it would be best for you to leave the US for six months and go to Guanajuato, Mexico "
I was shaken up I mean my dad had been trying to get me to go to Mexico for years and my sister wants to get me out of the house ( which i personally agree with)
but... going here?:
to live for six months or so seems sort of extreme.. ._.;
though later on my sister did talk to me and straightend out what had had twisted and basically said that by going there and being on my own i would have a chance to grow up and practice my mime and performance over there in front of the public in the streets since its a very touristy place and i could easily get a job since i'm bilingual showing tourists around or getting a day job and performing at night then when i come back i'll be a completely different person.
the good:
* my dad will be able to start me up with a small place to live in and will be able to help me in a pinch since he only lives 4 hrs away
* since it is a very artistic colonial town the arts are very well respected and are very forgiving and warm to newcomers so its a good starting point.
* being in a far away place i'll be better able to adjust to different kinds of people cultures , ect
The bad:
*By going over there i'm comitting myself to an artistic career which only my sister and mom fully back me up on.
I know my lover doesnt exactly approve of my artistic route too much either, and for good reason since its risky and its all up to me.
* If i dont do anything it will be wasted time.
though as my sister said the pain purpose in university for arts isnt about going to school. because it doesn't really teach you how to be an artist but it gives you connections but in the perfomance route i want to go performing in front of an audience is key then the connections.
if i do nothing nothing is going to happen and I'm 20 now i cant just sit back and expect anyone to hold my hand and lead me to a good point so I'm actually considering this...
thats not to say i'm scared shitless of the idea. But maybe a chance that drastic may either kill me or make me grow up.
maybe i'll talk to my lover about this once i'm more sure but for now i have to recollect my thoughts and really...really think about my future and start making serious choices.
I cant hold onto my youth forever....and it seems i cant wait til things get better... * sighs*
I dont know what to think...