Feliz Cinco de Mayo!!!
Ok, so I've learned my lesson. If I get to come back next year, things will be so totally different. There will be none of this unmotivation and procrastination. I just can't handle it. I need to be enjoying my last few days with friends here, but instead I'm having to lock myself in my room by myself to write my paper, essays, and study for my tests. Geez. I feel so stupid right now.
One more test, 2 more essays, and one bibliography for my paper...that's all I have to go...then it's over. I actually don't know if I'm happy or sad about it, because I will miss everyone soooooo stinkin' much this summer. I think that I would keep going to school, if it meant that I would be with them. Oh, no...was that a prophecy? Will I be one of those professional college students? I just flashed forward to my 7th year at TECH...holy crap. That can't happen. Ok, so I might live in Russellville for a while after I graduate...hey, some people like to take it slow!
But, really, I have no clue what I'll be doing. Right now I actually see myself graduating in 4 years and then going to seminary, getting married, then going to Taiwan to be a missionary for a while, then coming back here and being a youth minister of some sorts...how cool would it be if I could work at a Wesley Foundation at some college campus? Ooo....that's exciting. Then again, I don't know why I try to plan that kind of stuff out in my head. I don't really even know what my calling is about yet. I hope that this summer will prepare me for some deep searching with Brother Dave next semester. I am so happy and thankful that he is going to help me. He is an awesome person.
I do love Taylor. Yes, I'm getting back into that subject again. I'm not going to worry about not saying that I am in love. And if he says it again like he did, then I will talk about it with him. I do love him so much...I hope that no one ever gets the wrong idea...I just don't think I'm ready to be "in love" so much. Phew.
Alright, enough. Gotta get back to work.