My nonsense
So I was awake until about 5:30 last night/this morning. Not only were my thoughts plagued by the general discontent of the past week or so but a newfound discomfort. Long story short, I hate Facebook. It brings into view some things I'd rather not know.
So...I don't want to know something. At the same time, it's my RIGHT to know. Meanwhile, I already know from piecing together this and that. It doesn't effect me directly and I don't really care. At the same time, I do wonder and because I don't know completely it effects me because I feel like I'm being left out of something on purpose. I feel like there's something I want to understand but to understand it, I have to hear about something I don't want to hear about.
Does that make any sense at all?
So I guess at this point I'm just too exhausted, mentally and physically to want to deal with it. But there's still that part of me that feels like I should.
I would usually ask friends for advice...but I don't really have any close friends right now, other than LJ. There's a question I can ask some people but it's really kind of out of the blue...and I know the answer anyway. It has to do with a rumor I've heard. Rumors have to start somewhere, right? And if the rumor is about two people...and one person has nothing to gain by starting it...and if the people who know the rumor are friends of the other person, who can gain pity by starting it...obviously it is the fault of the other person.
And usually when someone makes rumors about you, whether there is truth to them or not, you don't associate with them. It wouldn't be rational, would it?
...so what would lead a person to do so?
Someone help me figure this out.
So...I don't want to know something. At the same time, it's my RIGHT to know. Meanwhile, I already know from piecing together this and that. It doesn't effect me directly and I don't really care. At the same time, I do wonder and because I don't know completely it effects me because I feel like I'm being left out of something on purpose. I feel like there's something I want to understand but to understand it, I have to hear about something I don't want to hear about.
Does that make any sense at all?
So I guess at this point I'm just too exhausted, mentally and physically to want to deal with it. But there's still that part of me that feels like I should.
I would usually ask friends for advice...but I don't really have any close friends right now, other than LJ. There's a question I can ask some people but it's really kind of out of the blue...and I know the answer anyway. It has to do with a rumor I've heard. Rumors have to start somewhere, right? And if the rumor is about two people...and one person has nothing to gain by starting it...and if the people who know the rumor are friends of the other person, who can gain pity by starting it...obviously it is the fault of the other person.
And usually when someone makes rumors about you, whether there is truth to them or not, you don't associate with them. It wouldn't be rational, would it?
...so what would lead a person to do so?
Someone help me figure this out.