Different.
The first time I ever really talked to him was on the internet. I had met him years before when I was young and immature but we underwent a re-connection within the last few months.
Of course it all started out in the simple get to know each other fashion that most internet crushes or relationships start. It soon bloomed into a mild infatuation and the craving to hear that someone was attracted to me. That there were parts of me that someone else wanted. Not just my body for sex but my mind for the certain truths and evils it held.
I find it amazing that when talking to someone on the internet whether it is a male, female, straight, homosexual or otherwise, conversations unavoidably always end up back at sex. The internet holds a certain sense of freedom. What gets said online stays online unless you choose a different route.
You get the opportunity to discover a whole other side to yourself. I never would have though that there was a dominatrix personality hiding deep withing myself but the internet sets you free. Of course, taking caution is important but to be able to let yourself go. It is indeed liberating.
I think todays entry on social behavior is finished but, I really am attracted to this guy. Yet, I dont think I would ever meet him in person. It would ruin the facade that has been built and thus destroy the fantasy that lies within it.
Of course it all started out in the simple get to know each other fashion that most internet crushes or relationships start. It soon bloomed into a mild infatuation and the craving to hear that someone was attracted to me. That there were parts of me that someone else wanted. Not just my body for sex but my mind for the certain truths and evils it held.
I find it amazing that when talking to someone on the internet whether it is a male, female, straight, homosexual or otherwise, conversations unavoidably always end up back at sex. The internet holds a certain sense of freedom. What gets said online stays online unless you choose a different route.
You get the opportunity to discover a whole other side to yourself. I never would have though that there was a dominatrix personality hiding deep withing myself but the internet sets you free. Of course, taking caution is important but to be able to let yourself go. It is indeed liberating.
I think todays entry on social behavior is finished but, I really am attracted to this guy. Yet, I dont think I would ever meet him in person. It would ruin the facade that has been built and thus destroy the fantasy that lies within it.