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[erniesucks]

i think i should try rehab. i threw up this morning, steve gave me some heroin and my stupid ass thought it would be cool to try it...i never thought i'd do heroin!?!? i've always just stuck with the basics; weed, shrooms and acid. for some reason heroin was different...it really made me feel good which is a bad thing becuase once you find something to numb that pain of depression, your only gonna want more. i hate my life!!!! no one could ever understand what i go through every day....ha, i have to live with the fact that my parents never wanted me, none the less my father killed himself when i was 3 years old and my mom was and still is a junkie. i thought that by moving out, things would be different but i completly fucked that up! i'm a goddamn drug addict, with a shit job and no college degree. i'll never make it in life at the rate i'm going.

meh FUCK this sappy shit!! i'm gonna go for a walk.