Turn Up The Bass Turn Up The Treble Bakersfield Psychobilly Rebel

[ernie_destruct]

i seem to know less and less what to do with myself i feel odd alot and i dont really get surprised anymore maybe ive just accepted being an outcast in some weird way i dont wanna be alone but i do nothing to change it i seem to want an embrace from one of the female gender but dont understand how not too screw it up i wanna know if love is even an

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[supermeowykitty]

I talked to zack sunday night. He told me you never punched him. Or pulled a knife on him. You said you called me in your journal. I never got a call. I don't know what hapened, but I can't seperate truth from lie with you ernie. I don't know if any of what you write about caring for me is real. I don't know if all the things you said to me so long ago were even true. I know everything with you meant so much to me, but I honestly have no idea how you felt then or feel now. You say yo so desperately want some kind of friendship with me, but I don't see you putting in the effort... You just never came down.. I don't want to write emails, and talk on the phone. I'm sick of being hurt when you don't call or just disappear. If we're going to work any of this out, I can only do it in person. If you ever want that, show up. You know where I live. I can't take waiting for you to show me you care anymore. I don't expect to see you again, It just doesn't seem like you have it in you to care about me enought to treat me right

even though i know you won't...

[supermeowykitty]

PPS "from every inch of my boduy and soul im truly sorry for everything ive done love,ernie destruct"

if that's true.. make it up to me...
all i want is the truth... if you want to show me you care, come give it to me...

don't worry though.. like i said before.. i don't expect you to be able to come...

...I just want you to know that I wish you the best in everything, and I hope you find your happiness in life. Bye Erniemonster.