please, let's forget that ever happened
rita introduced me as "one and only ed in chief" in her blog. please, let's not remember that ok? Remembering that time of my life sends shivers down my spine.
okay, okay. it was good while it lasted. and i met a lot of people along the way (pia, grey et al). BUT, remembering everything that happened makes me want to bonk myself in the head for NOT doing everything i could have done and not exhausting myself to make the paper better. i mean sure, the mag'cat during our time was fine and dandy and better than the ones that came before (cge pat, mag buhat ba raw ng sariling bangko). BUt i sure as hell know that i could have done better.
and i hate myself for even thinking that i deserved a "love life" at that time. i'm sorry! i should NEVER mix business with pleasure if you guys know what i mean. i hate it, i hate it. i hate it.
maybe i was too young for the heavy load. MAYBE. or maybe i was just too lax about the whole thing. i mean, i even sent myself to hawaii. that was two weeks of hell for gabby (my associate ed), what, with me just dropping everything on her lap and hopping on the plane. oh, now i get it. i was too immature.
and now, i'm traumatized. two years in UP and i still have no org. as in zero, zilch, nada. a lot of organizations have been recruiting me but i just give them one lousy excuse after another. "i'm not the one you want" or "i don't want to commit" or "i don't want to be tied to your org" or "it's not my thing". the real reason of course, is that i have this gargantuan fear that i'd fail again. no more 'sponsbilities for me. no thank's ma'am.
so let's all drop it ok? for those of you who still remember, let's bury the ed in chief memory.
okay, okay. it was good while it lasted. and i met a lot of people along the way (pia, grey et al). BUT, remembering everything that happened makes me want to bonk myself in the head for NOT doing everything i could have done and not exhausting myself to make the paper better. i mean sure, the mag'cat during our time was fine and dandy and better than the ones that came before (cge pat, mag buhat ba raw ng sariling bangko). BUt i sure as hell know that i could have done better.
and i hate myself for even thinking that i deserved a "love life" at that time. i'm sorry! i should NEVER mix business with pleasure if you guys know what i mean. i hate it, i hate it. i hate it.
maybe i was too young for the heavy load. MAYBE. or maybe i was just too lax about the whole thing. i mean, i even sent myself to hawaii. that was two weeks of hell for gabby (my associate ed), what, with me just dropping everything on her lap and hopping on the plane. oh, now i get it. i was too immature.
and now, i'm traumatized. two years in UP and i still have no org. as in zero, zilch, nada. a lot of organizations have been recruiting me but i just give them one lousy excuse after another. "i'm not the one you want" or "i don't want to commit" or "i don't want to be tied to your org" or "it's not my thing". the real reason of course, is that i have this gargantuan fear that i'd fail again. no more 'sponsbilities for me. no thank's ma'am.
so let's all drop it ok? for those of you who still remember, let's bury the ed in chief memory.