closing (and bolting) doors. a.k.a. everyone's someone else's troublemaker
the last time (well, before this time) i closed the door on something or someone was a little more than three years ago. this guy "tried" to court me when i didn't really want him to. it turned out really messy and he ended up stalking me. so i banished him from my life.
i still see this guy around, specially now that (i think) he cross registered here in diliman. this afternoon ryan and i saw him near the main lib. anyway... after telling him to "leave me alone", he did. eventually. but really, not after much protest and peace messages sent through various emissaries. he even created ugly issues so that, i assume (and assume too much) that we'd have some semblance of contact. but i never said hi again, i never even looked his way again. i had erased him from my life and that was it.
and there really was no chance for me to regret this decision. because i've always seen that step as a "preventive measure" that saved me a lot of (future) trouble. Because although we shared a certain degree of friendship, i was increasingly seeing him as a nuisance in my life.
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i've done it again. i've erased someone from my life again. pakiramdam ko nabunutan ako ng tinik, so to speak. this person had unquestionably brought me tons of problems and worries. but i know everyone's someone else's troublemaker. so i let that go.
he however, hurt me on purpose. unfortunately (or fortunately for me?) that was the end of my fuse. so there. once i told someone to "leave me alone". this time i said: "please don't bother me again."
and i meant it. and i'm relieved. and i hope that he gets to move on as well. i hope that he stops entertaining notions of reconciliation, because once i close doors, they remain locked.
i still see this guy around, specially now that (i think) he cross registered here in diliman. this afternoon ryan and i saw him near the main lib. anyway... after telling him to "leave me alone", he did. eventually. but really, not after much protest and peace messages sent through various emissaries. he even created ugly issues so that, i assume (and assume too much) that we'd have some semblance of contact. but i never said hi again, i never even looked his way again. i had erased him from my life and that was it.
and there really was no chance for me to regret this decision. because i've always seen that step as a "preventive measure" that saved me a lot of (future) trouble. Because although we shared a certain degree of friendship, i was increasingly seeing him as a nuisance in my life.
--
i've done it again. i've erased someone from my life again. pakiramdam ko nabunutan ako ng tinik, so to speak. this person had unquestionably brought me tons of problems and worries. but i know everyone's someone else's troublemaker. so i let that go.
he however, hurt me on purpose. unfortunately (or fortunately for me?) that was the end of my fuse. so there. once i told someone to "leave me alone". this time i said: "please don't bother me again."
and i meant it. and i'm relieved. and i hope that he gets to move on as well. i hope that he stops entertaining notions of reconciliation, because once i close doors, they remain locked.