Ah...
I love the Navy, but at the same time I hate it.
It's a different lifestyle, that's for sure. There's something though, that hurts. I have no problem with the Navy, I'll make it through. But it's not like going to college after highschool where you're slowly weened off of your old life. In the Navy, you're torn from your world and thrown into another. I have no problem with that either.
It's just... The consequences of being thrown around like that startles me sometimes. Because I wasn't weened off, on occassion a surge of memories and feelings floods into my mind and it almost brings me to tears. A thousand things hit me all at once and emotion takes over.
And, something else startles me lately. I've been unable to control these feelings I have for someone. I keep saying, "No, there's no fucking way! I'm not like that! I... I've never actually BEEN in love." But, I'm starting to think... that... maybe I am in love. I keep trying to tell myself I don't miss my old town and what not, but I do.
There's someone... There's someone I know that I don't know why... but I can't stop feeling for them. It tears me to pieces.
I think for once... I don't have control over myself. And, I don't like that.
Steve Out.
It's a different lifestyle, that's for sure. There's something though, that hurts. I have no problem with the Navy, I'll make it through. But it's not like going to college after highschool where you're slowly weened off of your old life. In the Navy, you're torn from your world and thrown into another. I have no problem with that either.
It's just... The consequences of being thrown around like that startles me sometimes. Because I wasn't weened off, on occassion a surge of memories and feelings floods into my mind and it almost brings me to tears. A thousand things hit me all at once and emotion takes over.
And, something else startles me lately. I've been unable to control these feelings I have for someone. I keep saying, "No, there's no fucking way! I'm not like that! I... I've never actually BEEN in love." But, I'm starting to think... that... maybe I am in love. I keep trying to tell myself I don't miss my old town and what not, but I do.
There's someone... There's someone I know that I don't know why... but I can't stop feeling for them. It tears me to pieces.
I think for once... I don't have control over myself. And, I don't like that.
Steve Out.