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I am notorious for having crushing, painful heartbreak weeks or even years after something happens, without warning, without a trigger, and I just double over because it's hard to imagine how else to keep what feels like my entire chest from shattering. If this pain were permanent or even lengthy, I wouldn't know how to survive it.
Someone walked out of my life. I realize that for me, they're as good as dead. Maybe this is what it feels like when someone you love dies. I've forgotten how to cry. I wish I could right now, as it could possibly make this hurt less. The only times I cry now are when people are kind to me. Isn't that silly? It hurts when people are nice. Something is seriously wrong with me.
Someone walked out of my life. I realize that for me, they're as good as dead. Maybe this is what it feels like when someone you love dies. I've forgotten how to cry. I wish I could right now, as it could possibly make this hurt less. The only times I cry now are when people are kind to me. Isn't that silly? It hurts when people are nice. Something is seriously wrong with me.