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I'm officially nocturnal. Last night I did not fall asleep until 6:00 am. It's all because I cancelled lessons with my students this week. I am hoping that because I am going to be busy this week doing make-up lessons in addition to my regular lessons my body will be forced to get back into a regular sleeping pattern.
The good news is, I am singing, I will be in Opera Lyra's production of Otello (and probably other performance opportunities), I have finished learning half of the repertoire for David's recital, am planning my own recital, and have lost fifty pounds.
Despite all this, I am in a funk. I get so lonely sometimes. I love David, and he's terrific and always there fore me, but he's busy and can't be with me all the time. I'm the type that needs people, and when I am not around people, or not forced to be around people regularly, I become a bit of a recluse. Facebook is great, but it is not the same as having friends close by. I feel like I am indulging myself in it to make me feel like I actually have friends. It's great here in Ottawa, and I have met some amazing people, but it's hard when you are not part of a degree or something where you can interact with people all the time. I guess I have to learn to not be so shy that way and just pick up the phone. I am hoping that with opera lyra I will meet some people, but like my job, no one I am interacting with is the same age as me (how did it end up that the people I come in contact with are either 6-8 or 30-60)? It's weird, I mean, really, how do you "make friends"? I don't know...
What I do know, is I am going on a facebook fast during the week, and am only going on it on the weekends.
I miss you guys!
The good news is, I am singing, I will be in Opera Lyra's production of Otello (and probably other performance opportunities), I have finished learning half of the repertoire for David's recital, am planning my own recital, and have lost fifty pounds.
Despite all this, I am in a funk. I get so lonely sometimes. I love David, and he's terrific and always there fore me, but he's busy and can't be with me all the time. I'm the type that needs people, and when I am not around people, or not forced to be around people regularly, I become a bit of a recluse. Facebook is great, but it is not the same as having friends close by. I feel like I am indulging myself in it to make me feel like I actually have friends. It's great here in Ottawa, and I have met some amazing people, but it's hard when you are not part of a degree or something where you can interact with people all the time. I guess I have to learn to not be so shy that way and just pick up the phone. I am hoping that with opera lyra I will meet some people, but like my job, no one I am interacting with is the same age as me (how did it end up that the people I come in contact with are either 6-8 or 30-60)? It's weird, I mean, really, how do you "make friends"? I don't know...
What I do know, is I am going on a facebook fast during the week, and am only going on it on the weekends.
I miss you guys!