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Ok, so I have two jobs. I am an assistant manager at a clothing store and have recently started teaching singing and piano (my absolute passion and field of study).
I have now worked 16 days straight (15 of which were all at the clothing store), and today I will teach my second set of piano and singing students for the first time.
Today I only teach and for some reason I am freaking out! I am teaching little grade ones and twos, but I still am so nervous. IT's amazing, I have sung in front of 1200 people, and yet I am really nervous about teaching a few half/hour lessons.
I have two degrees in music and yet I am still so worried. Is this just a reaction of being under so much stress lately? I mean, I thought I would be excited because I am finally doing something in my field, (and I think I would). I felt great the first day I taught piano, but right now I am just feeling like I have no idea what I am doing. It's almost as though I have been so busy, when I have time to myself I don't know what to do with myself.
Also, at the clothing store job, we have new management and the new people are driving me absolutely crazy. I hate every minute I am there. I know I am going to be getting more music students, so I am thinking about quitting as an assistant manager. I just want to be happy and not freaking out when I have half a day to myself.
I don't really know what the point of this post is, but I just really needed to let it out. I think I should go to the gym so I can chill out!
Did any of you music people ever feel this way? *sigh*
I have now worked 16 days straight (15 of which were all at the clothing store), and today I will teach my second set of piano and singing students for the first time.
Today I only teach and for some reason I am freaking out! I am teaching little grade ones and twos, but I still am so nervous. IT's amazing, I have sung in front of 1200 people, and yet I am really nervous about teaching a few half/hour lessons.
I have two degrees in music and yet I am still so worried. Is this just a reaction of being under so much stress lately? I mean, I thought I would be excited because I am finally doing something in my field, (and I think I would). I felt great the first day I taught piano, but right now I am just feeling like I have no idea what I am doing. It's almost as though I have been so busy, when I have time to myself I don't know what to do with myself.
Also, at the clothing store job, we have new management and the new people are driving me absolutely crazy. I hate every minute I am there. I know I am going to be getting more music students, so I am thinking about quitting as an assistant manager. I just want to be happy and not freaking out when I have half a day to myself.
I don't really know what the point of this post is, but I just really needed to let it out. I think I should go to the gym so I can chill out!
Did any of you music people ever feel this way? *sigh*