strange
it is so weird what can happen in only four years. When I was in high school I had my fair share of crushes. The only sad thing about these crushes, was that none of the guys had the same feelings about me. Well for some reason all these guys all of a sudden have broken up with their girlfriends, and now apparently I'm looking pretty good. Lets start from the beginning. Andrew was the guy that I thought I was in love with for about three years. We never dated, but we were best friends. We spent a lot of time together, and he always had a girlfriend. Now he just broke up with his girlfriend of three years, and he is spending time with me again. We spent all this morning lying in bed together and it was really nice. I'm just not so sure that I have those feelings for him anymore. It's been so long, and I've changed so much. A lot has happened and I just think that we're better off as just friends. So he is romantically out of the picture. So then we got Paul Flegal. I had a huge crush on this guy, probably only because he was the best looking guy in my group of friends in high school. I though he was dreamy, and he though of me as just a friend. Now all of a sudden I get a message from him saying "hey sexy you've changed a lot since he last time that I saw you and we should hang out. He just changed his relationship status from in a relationship to single. Now with Paul, I don't know if I ever even liked him. I think he was just the cutest guy that I hung out with at the time, and anyway he seems really shallow. What was so wrong with me back then? I'll tell you why, I was ugly. So then we have David who just broke up with his girlfriend. Now he was to hang out with me again, because he got his heart broken. I get the feeling I'm just a rebound for him though. He never really cared about me, and I always had the feeling that he was just an asshole that was using me. We also have jake texting me all the time and he has a girlfriend. That one I know is over because I'm the one that ended it. Jeremy still has a girlfriend too and he wanted to start hanging out with me again. I just don't know how in four years I went from quirky funny looking friend, to the girl that everyone wants after they get out of their long term relationships. Yeah on the outside I may have changed a bit from high school, but really nothing else has changed about me. I'm a bit more confident, but the people that I'm most surprised by haven't even hung out with me since high school. I wish that I could just forget about men altogether.