praying for clarity..
mostly the past few weeks i've been miserable. I don't know if i've ever been depressed but i'm guessing this is the closest ive been. I thought moving to be with brett would make me SO happy. dont get me wrong i love him but putting up with the crap his mother does is just not worth it. I always feel like i'm insignificant and the more i try the more i'm just CRAP to her. I want to just feel like i dont care but its wearing on me. I miss my family. I miss my old life, and its not making it any easier being here. I've felt like packing up and moving back home several times. to make matters worse we had a beagle puppy come into work last week, i figured a 4 month old girl beagle puppy was like a bday present to myself.. big fat negative.. she BITES; and not the playful kind i mean full on i want to hurt you bites. so now today when brett gets off we have to go to the shelter and turn her in.. hopefully they have another puppy.. maybe we can make a deal?
what do i do at this point? give up cut my losses and move home to nurse my wounds? or try and give it another try? (although i always feel like i'm giving it another try, when maybe i'm pushing myself to be somewhere i'm not meant to be?) i dont know... I guess i'm trying to vent to myself and hoping an answer apears somehow.. we'll see..
....praying.. please pray for me.....
what do i do at this point? give up cut my losses and move home to nurse my wounds? or try and give it another try? (although i always feel like i'm giving it another try, when maybe i'm pushing myself to be somewhere i'm not meant to be?) i dont know... I guess i'm trying to vent to myself and hoping an answer apears somehow.. we'll see..
....praying.. please pray for me.....