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I'm sick of being nice to people and never knowing what attitude I will receive in return. It's really annoying not knowing how some people are going react to you at any given time. I know I may sometimes not be in the mood to go out or something, but I never give anyone the reason to believe that I am mad or anything. I mean, honestly, lately it seems like the only people I ever really hang out with are Victoria, Jess and Tim. And also Sabila. Which isn't a bad thing. Lately Victoria and Jerry have been hanging out all the time which I think is truly awesome for her. (It's nice hanging out with her because I can tell she is happy, and I know we don't hang out as much as we used to, but last week I had alot of fun at her house then the movies; this weekend was just a little strange.) And obviously Jess and Tim are awesome, but they are going out so I like when they have their alone time. And Sabila and I always have a million things to talk about.
But I guess sometimes I start thinking about my close friends and wondering if the summer will be this way too. And then I read other journal entries about everyone else doing the same as me. So why don't we all hang out? I mean, if we are all in the same boat with a limited amount of close friends, then why must there be a problem in expanding our horizons and hanging out with the people we always say we will but never do? And then I feel like I've been singing this song all my life and nothing will ever change for me. And I mean maybe I should be grateful for the few close friends I have. But is it so much to ask to have a group of friends to know you can always count on? I feel like so many people I've gotten so close to this year and then drifted apart with the same intensity. It makes me sad, and you know you can never go back. It kind of brings me to the thought Sabila and I have been pondering lately. Time. It's all about time. It's what brings a person together. It can also be the factor that breaks down another. Time can make our decisions for us, time can limit us to what we can and cannot do. Time can make us feel one thing one day and then another way the next. If you think about all the people you've met, you can guarentee you just might react to them differently at different times in your life. So maybe I shouldn't be upset when people do it to me. I just can't help but take it personal. :-/
But enough of the lame emotional burst of an entry...
I cut math today! I'm such a rebel.
And I am listening to steel train. I need to get their CD. And they are playing at the Knitting Factory in two weeks. Anyone be interested in going with me? :)
But I guess sometimes I start thinking about my close friends and wondering if the summer will be this way too. And then I read other journal entries about everyone else doing the same as me. So why don't we all hang out? I mean, if we are all in the same boat with a limited amount of close friends, then why must there be a problem in expanding our horizons and hanging out with the people we always say we will but never do? And then I feel like I've been singing this song all my life and nothing will ever change for me. And I mean maybe I should be grateful for the few close friends I have. But is it so much to ask to have a group of friends to know you can always count on? I feel like so many people I've gotten so close to this year and then drifted apart with the same intensity. It makes me sad, and you know you can never go back. It kind of brings me to the thought Sabila and I have been pondering lately. Time. It's all about time. It's what brings a person together. It can also be the factor that breaks down another. Time can make our decisions for us, time can limit us to what we can and cannot do. Time can make us feel one thing one day and then another way the next. If you think about all the people you've met, you can guarentee you just might react to them differently at different times in your life. So maybe I shouldn't be upset when people do it to me. I just can't help but take it personal. :-/
But enough of the lame emotional burst of an entry...
I cut math today! I'm such a rebel.
And I am listening to steel train. I need to get their CD. And they are playing at the Knitting Factory in two weeks. Anyone be interested in going with me? :)