I shouldn't be depressed about it, but dammit, it should be me!
She's almost 36, her youngest just turned 6 years old. She had to be on meds to conceive the two older kids. The youngest was an oops too. And they're the kind of married couple that has sex maybe 2x a year cuz she usually falls asleep on the couch and he's in the bedroom. And here I've struggled to readjust my sleep habits so that I go to bed with my husband and bump like bunnies more often. She's lucky if she has a period once a year and mines back to normal now. They're moving again, renting, because their finances are soooooo screwed up. Where is God's wisdom in giving her another child when things are hard enough for them as it is? I was starting to get faith back that He would help us out a bit here, faith that any higher power would smile down on us. But hell, people all around me that shouldn't be having kids or don't want kids are getting knocked up. And me? Nada.
I know. Faith and patience. It'll happen when it's the right time. Easier said by everyone else, and hard when you want something it so bad. And you're the only one I know that really understands that baby fever right now. *huggles*
She's almost 36, her youngest just turned 6 years old. She had to be on meds to conceive the two older kids. The youngest was an oops too. And they're the kind of married couple that has sex maybe 2x a year cuz she usually falls asleep on the couch and he's in the bedroom. And here I've struggled to readjust my sleep habits so that I go to bed with my husband and bump like bunnies more often. She's lucky if she has a period once a year and mines back to normal now. They're moving again, renting, because their finances are soooooo screwed up. Where is God's wisdom in giving her another child when things are hard enough for them as it is? I was starting to get faith back that He would help us out a bit here, faith that any higher power would smile down on us. But hell, people all around me that shouldn't be having kids or don't want kids are getting knocked up. And me? Nada.
I know. Faith and patience. It'll happen when it's the right time.
Easier said by everyone else, and hard when you want something it so bad.
And you're the only one I know that really understands that baby fever right now.
*huggles*
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