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I need to stop putting myself down and being self-destructive.
I can't figure out why I feel like I don't deserve high self esteem. I feel like if I say good things about myself, to myself, I am being too vain for what I 'deserve'. My family has definitely not helped this situation. They have had the same attitude towards themselves and towards the rest of us.
I am tired to telling myself that I would get more attention from the opposite sex if my hair were longer, or if I wore more makeup, or if I were shorter, or if I was skinnier, or if my nose was less 'slopey', or if I had better teeth, or if I didn't have love handles, or WHATEVER. I am sick of telling myself those things, because that is simply not true. If someone chose to become friends with me, the fact that I have a ski slope nose, or love handles will not stop them from becoming friends with me.
I need to learn how to believe in myself. I need to learn how to really have confidence, and not have fake confidence. I also need to learn that being thinner will not solve all my problems.
That said, I like myself. maybe?
I can't figure out why I feel like I don't deserve high self esteem. I feel like if I say good things about myself, to myself, I am being too vain for what I 'deserve'. My family has definitely not helped this situation. They have had the same attitude towards themselves and towards the rest of us.
I am tired to telling myself that I would get more attention from the opposite sex if my hair were longer, or if I wore more makeup, or if I were shorter, or if I was skinnier, or if my nose was less 'slopey', or if I had better teeth, or if I didn't have love handles, or WHATEVER. I am sick of telling myself those things, because that is simply not true. If someone chose to become friends with me, the fact that I have a ski slope nose, or love handles will not stop them from becoming friends with me.
I need to learn how to believe in myself. I need to learn how to really have confidence, and not have fake confidence. I also need to learn that being thinner will not solve all my problems.
That said, I like myself. maybe?