I Finally Have Something To Talk About!!!!!
Wellllll.. A whole lot has happened and I don't think that I will be able to blab it all.. but I will do my best to excite you!
Caspien already told you about the waterpark.. so there is not a whole lot to tell there! I am really excited though because for the first time in my life... my sunburn is actually turning into a sun TAN! I look a little dark and that excites me because I have been white white white forever!! (regardless of what simone said! LOL) OK... enough about my tan!
Two night ago I found out some really bad news! My sister has been smoking! And I know that some of you are saying... who cares... she is experimenting... etc etc etc. But to me it is a big deal! I admit.. I tried cigarettes and stuff when I was younger (and even when I was older... and it sent me to the hospital!!! LOL) but I never tried to get cigarettes from adults or buy them from kids at my school! I have always thought that it is a horrible horrible habit. And you think that seeing a person in the family who is dying slowly from emphysema and has wrinkles galore and has mouth cancer that is getting worse by the day that it would make a person think twice before putting some of those nasty things in your mouth! But I guess some people don't look at the logical side of things. I know that it can't possibly be to be "Cool!" because I know that even when I was in high school (which was ohhh so long ago!!!) that no one ever made fun of me or teased me when I told them that I didn't smoke and had absolutely no desire too! I guess that it is just a rebellion! But I think that is a really dumb ass way to rebel! By killing yourself!
She also told my mom that she is practicing witchcraft! I have no idea where she got that thing from... but hopefully that too is a phase that will pass over!
I guess that I am just to involved in wanting to look out for my sister. But I am not living her life and I know that I cannot change anything that she wants to do. But sometimes I feel that she doesn't listen to me at all... and she thinks that I don't know anything about having a hard time in school! I wasn't the most popular person... but I didn't have problems with people making fun of me either because I pretty much mtured in high school more that everyone else and I just learned that if you ignore it.. it will go away.. and it did! I had alot of "friends" but I really think that only close friends matter. But my sister doesn't seem to be making any close friends... just people that go out with her once in awhile and then don't talk to her until they need something! I can't STAND people like that! They drive me up the wall!
And for those of you who dont know... I was very depressed growing up! They estimate that my depression actually started when I was a baby! And my father always tells everyone that I was an awful child and that he wishes that I could have been perfect! Well.. I hate to break it to him... but I was almost as close to perfect as a person gets! LOL I would have to say that if you would like a role model for perfect.. you should look at my best friends Jacki and Joni! LOL I never drank... I never smoked... I never did drugs.. I got straight A's all throught school! I mean... what more could you ask for?? And now he is telling everyone that he would rather deal with the problems that Rachel is putting him through rather than dealing with my mouth and all the fights we had! But when I was 15 they started me on a drug called Zoloft! I to this day think that is a miracle drug.. and if any of your doctor's out there prescribe it to you.. don't hesitate to take it.. it will change your life! But now they are talking about my sister having the same problems.. but she refuses to take the medicine.. no matter what I tell her. But I guess that some people just aren't awake to the real world!!!!
Ummmmmmm... I just went back and read all that I wrote and I think that if you read it.. you should just ignore it.. because I was just getting all my ranting out in writing because it made me feel better!
Caspien - I don't have anything to say to you right now.... except that I know that when I stay at granny's again.. you are gonna go crazy on ICUII and I am going to tell!!! LOL j/k
Dee - Where are you? Are you feelin any better?
Dean - ??
Genese - I am sorry to hear that you are having some problems! I am here for ya if you ever need to get anything out! Love ya Beaver Slappin Buddy!
Jaimie - Hope things are going ok for ya! Haven't talked to you in a while!
Jimmers - I really liked your Lover Boy story! LOL Hope to read more of your journals soon! LOL
Lindsay - Do ya ever read these things anymore? LOL
Simone - I don't even think you read these things anymore! LOL
Well.. that is all.. excpet for this... The only thing.. you'll learn... is just to love.. and be loved in return!!!
HUGZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!
Erin
Caspien already told you about the waterpark.. so there is not a whole lot to tell there! I am really excited though because for the first time in my life... my sunburn is actually turning into a sun TAN! I look a little dark and that excites me because I have been white white white forever!! (regardless of what simone said! LOL) OK... enough about my tan!
Two night ago I found out some really bad news! My sister has been smoking! And I know that some of you are saying... who cares... she is experimenting... etc etc etc. But to me it is a big deal! I admit.. I tried cigarettes and stuff when I was younger (and even when I was older... and it sent me to the hospital!!! LOL) but I never tried to get cigarettes from adults or buy them from kids at my school! I have always thought that it is a horrible horrible habit. And you think that seeing a person in the family who is dying slowly from emphysema and has wrinkles galore and has mouth cancer that is getting worse by the day that it would make a person think twice before putting some of those nasty things in your mouth! But I guess some people don't look at the logical side of things. I know that it can't possibly be to be "Cool!" because I know that even when I was in high school (which was ohhh so long ago!!!) that no one ever made fun of me or teased me when I told them that I didn't smoke and had absolutely no desire too! I guess that it is just a rebellion! But I think that is a really dumb ass way to rebel! By killing yourself!
She also told my mom that she is practicing witchcraft! I have no idea where she got that thing from... but hopefully that too is a phase that will pass over!
I guess that I am just to involved in wanting to look out for my sister. But I am not living her life and I know that I cannot change anything that she wants to do. But sometimes I feel that she doesn't listen to me at all... and she thinks that I don't know anything about having a hard time in school! I wasn't the most popular person... but I didn't have problems with people making fun of me either because I pretty much mtured in high school more that everyone else and I just learned that if you ignore it.. it will go away.. and it did! I had alot of "friends" but I really think that only close friends matter. But my sister doesn't seem to be making any close friends... just people that go out with her once in awhile and then don't talk to her until they need something! I can't STAND people like that! They drive me up the wall!
And for those of you who dont know... I was very depressed growing up! They estimate that my depression actually started when I was a baby! And my father always tells everyone that I was an awful child and that he wishes that I could have been perfect! Well.. I hate to break it to him... but I was almost as close to perfect as a person gets! LOL I would have to say that if you would like a role model for perfect.. you should look at my best friends Jacki and Joni! LOL I never drank... I never smoked... I never did drugs.. I got straight A's all throught school! I mean... what more could you ask for?? And now he is telling everyone that he would rather deal with the problems that Rachel is putting him through rather than dealing with my mouth and all the fights we had! But when I was 15 they started me on a drug called Zoloft! I to this day think that is a miracle drug.. and if any of your doctor's out there prescribe it to you.. don't hesitate to take it.. it will change your life! But now they are talking about my sister having the same problems.. but she refuses to take the medicine.. no matter what I tell her. But I guess that some people just aren't awake to the real world!!!!
Ummmmmmm... I just went back and read all that I wrote and I think that if you read it.. you should just ignore it.. because I was just getting all my ranting out in writing because it made me feel better!
Caspien - I don't have anything to say to you right now.... except that I know that when I stay at granny's again.. you are gonna go crazy on ICUII and I am going to tell!!! LOL j/k
Dee - Where are you? Are you feelin any better?
Dean - ??
Genese - I am sorry to hear that you are having some problems! I am here for ya if you ever need to get anything out! Love ya Beaver Slappin Buddy!
Jaimie - Hope things are going ok for ya! Haven't talked to you in a while!
Jimmers - I really liked your Lover Boy story! LOL Hope to read more of your journals soon! LOL
Lindsay - Do ya ever read these things anymore? LOL
Simone - I don't even think you read these things anymore! LOL
Well.. that is all.. excpet for this... The only thing.. you'll learn... is just to love.. and be loved in return!!!
HUGZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!
Erin