Hmmm....
So I had a really crazy day today... driving to Dothan to perform.. and then getting to Montgomery in 1 hour and 35 minutes for yet another performance.. it was crazy-- but I did it!!! :)
Last night I watched a movie with a friend.. and oh my goodness.. it really opened up my eyes. I seriously cried through half of it like a big baby.. but so much of seemed to correlate to my life. There was a part in it that just made me ball my eyes out.. bc it just fit my situation perfectly...except just a little bit reversed... she wanted to just be friends with this man that she was in love with... and he said something that makes so much sense... "How can you say that you love me and not want to be with me... I don't want just half of you... I deserve the whole you...I can't love JUST half of you..." It was perfect. This movie was great.. it was Christian based.. another quote that I love is this: "Time heals the heart..Faith heals the rest" This is what her mom said to her.. and man, I balled like a baby.. because it's so true.
Have you ever loved someone so much that everytime you see them.. even if you are mad.. you just want to tell them that you love them? I have. Have you ever seen him/her at her his/her worst and thought that they were gorgeous? I have. I can list so many more.
This is me letting go though.. if that's what he wants.. just to be friends, then that's fine, because I know there is someone else out there for both me and him. I know there is someone that thinks that I'm gorgeous inside and out and that will love me unconditionally and that will work hard for something that they love so much. I actually had a chance to go on a date last night.. SWEET guy... but I freaked out and turned it down... why?? Because that love is still burning for someone else. Well, I'm blowing that flame out. I can't love someone that doesn't want to try. A lot of people know what I've been going through and they keep telling me just to stay away.. but Tiffany said it right.. if it's someone that you love so much, you just dont care what others say sometimes. However, now I know this is what I need and maybe my friends were right all along. That guy that I was going to go out with last night... he seems like the complete package.. he's a devoted Christian, he's older than I am, and he's so kind hearted... and I didn't go. I'm going out to dinner with him next weekend though and I actually may see him later on today, so maybe my story will be a happy ending too. He's constantly telling that he loves me personality.. how he thinks I'm so talented.. he thinks I'm beautiful... and I think he's... great. I just need to get to know him though first.. completely.
Sorry for being a big sap.. but it's my feelings. Well, I'm going to volunteer in Montgomery.. yay!! See ya guys later!
Last night I watched a movie with a friend.. and oh my goodness.. it really opened up my eyes. I seriously cried through half of it like a big baby.. but so much of seemed to correlate to my life. There was a part in it that just made me ball my eyes out.. bc it just fit my situation perfectly...except just a little bit reversed... she wanted to just be friends with this man that she was in love with... and he said something that makes so much sense... "How can you say that you love me and not want to be with me... I don't want just half of you... I deserve the whole you...I can't love JUST half of you..." It was perfect. This movie was great.. it was Christian based.. another quote that I love is this: "Time heals the heart..Faith heals the rest" This is what her mom said to her.. and man, I balled like a baby.. because it's so true.
Have you ever loved someone so much that everytime you see them.. even if you are mad.. you just want to tell them that you love them? I have. Have you ever seen him/her at her his/her worst and thought that they were gorgeous? I have. I can list so many more.
This is me letting go though.. if that's what he wants.. just to be friends, then that's fine, because I know there is someone else out there for both me and him. I know there is someone that thinks that I'm gorgeous inside and out and that will love me unconditionally and that will work hard for something that they love so much. I actually had a chance to go on a date last night.. SWEET guy... but I freaked out and turned it down... why?? Because that love is still burning for someone else. Well, I'm blowing that flame out. I can't love someone that doesn't want to try. A lot of people know what I've been going through and they keep telling me just to stay away.. but Tiffany said it right.. if it's someone that you love so much, you just dont care what others say sometimes. However, now I know this is what I need and maybe my friends were right all along. That guy that I was going to go out with last night... he seems like the complete package.. he's a devoted Christian, he's older than I am, and he's so kind hearted... and I didn't go. I'm going out to dinner with him next weekend though and I actually may see him later on today, so maybe my story will be a happy ending too. He's constantly telling that he loves me personality.. how he thinks I'm so talented.. he thinks I'm beautiful... and I think he's... great. I just need to get to know him though first.. completely.
Sorry for being a big sap.. but it's my feelings. Well, I'm going to volunteer in Montgomery.. yay!! See ya guys later!