Just Reading

[erinesque11]

I just read Jadell's livejournal..It's so strange to me that she can explain exactly  how i've been feeling for thelongesttime now.   Lately I've been forcing myself todo thjings...and nothing makes mehappy because of it..It really sucks that this is happening right now at the end of eigth grade year..when i have nothing tobe insecure about..and thisis all comingso fast at the end. II hate that i',m aroundmymomso much becauseshe obsorbs everyones problemsaround her..like a sponge. For me before, ihave fun  when i know the people around me are having  fun. which is totally stupid! i should have fun when I have  fun..Ineverrs say what imthinking anymore bc really..all imthinking aboutis worries and streesses thingslike" ohh..hopethisis  fun" instead of living in the moment . I want people to be inspired beme...I want people to lookupto me and want tobe around me.I want to be a strong person..i want tofeel secure with myself and feel confident in me............

Icant really putmythoughts into wordsanymore..Ifeel like latley my vocabulary hasbeen reallylimited and my imaginaqtion  clouded..

Ihope things getbetter..ineed tostart being happy

NOW