Lonely
So I'm laying in bed thinking about this past week and have gotten to the point where I just want to curl up and cry myself to sleep.
In the past three days I've gone to a wake for one person and a funeral for another.
It has been the most depressing week ever.
Both people were wonderful people who lived happy lives.
The week has made me realize though...
I feel so ridiculously alone.
Yes, I have my parents and my sisters and a few incredible friends, but at the end of the day, I'm still alone.
They say the human body physically needs human contact to function. It keeps us healthy and sane.
I literally go for weeks without physical contact. It's sad and almost painful.
I feel silly admitting how lonely I feel to the internet, but I just need to say these things.
Somehow last night while I was sleeping I managed to take my pants off. I woke up cuddling with them, clinging to them for dear life. I think that's a sign of how much I miss waking up next to someone.
I've started dreaming of funerals. So far, I've dreamt of my parents, my little sister, my best friend, and my own. The dreams feel so real I don't want to sleep.
Ugh. I just don't know what to do anymore.
In the past three days I've gone to a wake for one person and a funeral for another.
It has been the most depressing week ever.
Both people were wonderful people who lived happy lives.
The week has made me realize though...
I feel so ridiculously alone.
Yes, I have my parents and my sisters and a few incredible friends, but at the end of the day, I'm still alone.
They say the human body physically needs human contact to function. It keeps us healthy and sane.
I literally go for weeks without physical contact. It's sad and almost painful.
I feel silly admitting how lonely I feel to the internet, but I just need to say these things.
Somehow last night while I was sleeping I managed to take my pants off. I woke up cuddling with them, clinging to them for dear life. I think that's a sign of how much I miss waking up next to someone.
I've started dreaming of funerals. So far, I've dreamt of my parents, my little sister, my best friend, and my own. The dreams feel so real I don't want to sleep.
Ugh. I just don't know what to do anymore.