R-day
Well, here it is. I don't know how it happened, but the big day has finally, inexorably, arrived.
recital day!!!
in less than 12 hours, I will be on stage alone in pollack hall, performing my little heart out for my bachelor's degree.
How it's going to turn out still seems like a blank; i mean, logically, I have no reason to worry. I'm feeling good, everything has gone really well in rehearsal...but then again, the figure skaters always land the quads in the warm ups and then can't get it together to land more than a double in the competetion. I've never done a solo recital before--even though the dress rehearsal was perfect, I have no idea if I'm going to get onstage, see everyone out there and start going "jerli dvj wpieubwfc j!!!!AHHHHH!!!" and run away vommitting blood.
But then i have moments where I don't think that will happen......moments in which I actually believe I will ENJOY myself onstage; delight and entrance the audience; play competently and in control. I want to hang onto those moments.....and NOT drop dead on stage.
So, anyhow, I've been waiting for this allll year--and for the three years before now, too.
get excited. this time tomorrow I'll be drinking latte's and living easy.
as I get ready, warm up, and do my hair, I keep thinking "today is just another day I get to play. I'm not playing for them anymore....I'm playing for me".
hahaha. I couldn't even watch centre stage last night...it made me too nervous/sad.
but anyway. see you in 10 days, girls..............hopefully this experience will be a good one.
recital day!!!
in less than 12 hours, I will be on stage alone in pollack hall, performing my little heart out for my bachelor's degree.
How it's going to turn out still seems like a blank; i mean, logically, I have no reason to worry. I'm feeling good, everything has gone really well in rehearsal...but then again, the figure skaters always land the quads in the warm ups and then can't get it together to land more than a double in the competetion. I've never done a solo recital before--even though the dress rehearsal was perfect, I have no idea if I'm going to get onstage, see everyone out there and start going "jerli dvj wpieubwfc j!!!!AHHHHH!!!" and run away vommitting blood.
But then i have moments where I don't think that will happen......moments in which I actually believe I will ENJOY myself onstage; delight and entrance the audience; play competently and in control. I want to hang onto those moments.....and NOT drop dead on stage.
So, anyhow, I've been waiting for this allll year--and for the three years before now, too.
get excited. this time tomorrow I'll be drinking latte's and living easy.
as I get ready, warm up, and do my hair, I keep thinking "today is just another day I get to play. I'm not playing for them anymore....I'm playing for me".
hahaha. I couldn't even watch centre stage last night...it made me too nervous/sad.
but anyway. see you in 10 days, girls..............hopefully this experience will be a good one.