Theatrical Muse Topic 103: (Switchman) What is the thing you regret most NOT saying?
I have a lot of regrets in my life. I am not the best at saying what I feel; hell, I suck at saying what I feel. I regret that I let my father come between me and my brother. I regret that I didn’t tell my mom I loved her that night before she left. I regret that I wasn’t a better husband to Carolyn. She really did deserve better than a cold, mostly absent husband. Still, of all that, I think my biggest regret hit me today. See, we were tracking down a bomber, one who seemed to enjoy taunting me specifically. It was really strange that the switchman always seemed one step ahead of me and damned professional about it. In the end, it wasn’t a hardened criminal, just a lost, screwed up little girl who blamed me for her father’s death. He was one of my men. I tried to save him, I told her that but she was too lost in her own pain. In the end, we wrapped things up and she will get the help she needs, but I cannot stop hearing her voice. “You left me all alone” she said. And I did, or rather the ones that gunned us down did. Still, I realized that I returned and those men never did and I never once went to see or speak to any of their loved ones. What kind of commander was I? What kind of man am I? So, here I sit, safe in my loft and those men, they are dead and their families feel the loss. The thing I regret most not ever saying is I’m sorry to those people - perhaps it's not too late.
From: vamysteryfan Date: December 12th, 2005 07:09 am (local) (Link) (IP Address: 164.82.144.3)
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I like this little sequence of stories and hope there will be more. This one was a bit melancholic but I can see it.
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Date: December 12th, 2005 04:48 pm (local) (Link) (IP Address: 65.113.141.2)
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There's a challenge per week, to answer the question in your character's voice. Jessie and I are writing Jim and Blair and decided to take an episode each week with the challenge...so this one is written to the Switchman, the next one is to the Siege and so on. I'm glad you like them...It's been challenging to get into Jim's head. The main thing that I find easy about writing Jim is understanding why he's head over heels over Blair. Those lips alone can make that easy.
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From: pattrose Date: December 18th, 2005 06:35 pm (local) (Link) (IP Address: 207.200.116.13)
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Suz, this was just wonderful. I loved it. I love the new page. I've been checking your old one and you hadn't been putting anything there. Shows what I know, eh? Anyhow, I'm sure glad you're in the Sentinel Fandom now.
Hugs, Patt
From: vamysteryfan Date: December 12th, 2005 07:09 am (local) (Link) (IP Address: 164.82.144.3)
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I like this little sequence of stories and hope there will be more. This one was a bit melancholic but I can see it.
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Date: December 12th, 2005 04:48 pm (local) (Link) (IP Address: 65.113.141.2)
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There's a challenge per week, to answer the question in your character's voice. Jessie and I are writing Jim and Blair and decided to take an episode each week with the challenge...so this one is written to the Switchman, the next one is to the Siege and so on. I'm glad you like them...It's been challenging to get into Jim's head. The main thing that I find easy about writing Jim is understanding why he's head over heels over Blair. Those lips alone can make that easy.
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From: pattrose Date: December 18th, 2005 06:35 pm (local) (Link) (IP Address: 207.200.116.13)
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Suz, this was just wonderful. I loved it. I love the new page. I've been checking your old one and you hadn't been putting anything there. Shows what I know, eh? Anyhow, I'm sure glad you're in the Sentinel Fandom now.
Hugs, Patt