TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY; HERE'S WHY:
I went to Connor's in the morning. He convinced me to ditch my psych class... LOL --I like how I'm not even leaving class 15 minutes early. Now I'm just NOT going. I stayed with him till 2:30. He explained how baseball works for my ditzy-non-sport-brain since he insisted he watched the 2005 White Sox World Series for the umpteenth time. When I left and went to Forest Park, I got MY parking spot at the Blue Line that someone has been stealing from me for the past week. That was a definite PLUS!
And even though I ended up being five minutes late to my English class, I got an A- on my first college paper WOO! and Oakes told us that the class average was a C. SO, BOOYAH!! OMG WHY AM I SO AMAZING?! Too bad the next writing assignment is so obscure that there's no way in hell I can see myself maintaining my A :(
I finally returned that laptop case at the Juicy Couture store today. It ended up being the last day to return it, so thank god my sister suggested I do it today. I got $104.74 back in cash, which goes without saying was FUCKING AWESOME. So, I happily skipped (not really) to the American Apparel in the Gold Coast area on Walton and dropped a good $176.40 there. BUT OMG IT'S WORTH IT! and I NEVER go shopping anymore... so grant me a little leeway, eh?! And all of this made me realize that I have NO girlfriends anymore. I'm literally alone, walking the streets of chicago, shopping. How pathetic is that?? GIRLFRIENDS WANTED!
Afterwards, I met up with my sister. The two of us went to Sushi Wabi. Probably the best sushi I've ever had. Talk about Godzilla Roll! I forgot what the other roll was called, and I don't want to butcher its name... but I definitely liked it better than the Godzilla. I was so full; it was really filling. My mom called me asking to buy her a lottery ticket. Keep in mind, that I practically just turned 18 and I've never done this before. So I walk into this 7/11 on Armitage and the guy behind the counter gives me the HARDEST TIME. He stares at me, then looks down at my ID, then stares at me again, then looks at the ID again and says, "NO." LOL So I'm all, "WAIT WUT?!" Then he says, "Is this you?" ME: "uh, YEAH!" HIM: "Are you 18?" ME: "Is that not what the card says?" HIM: "Is this ID yours?" ME: "WAIT WUT?! LOL YES YES IT IS MINE!" Then he looked at it again, shook his head, then gave me a two dollar lottery ticket for the mega milion or whatever the fuck it's called. Cool story for my first carded moment, right? LOL NO! I just realized that I'm probably never gonna "play the lottery" ever again. It's like, "OHAI I'M TRYING TO GET RICH!"
I went back to my sister's place and watched the SOX game there. Fucking ridiculous. Seriously. BLACK OUT! DANKS! PLAYOFFS! WHATDEH?!
Connor came over when he got home from the game. He was decked out in all SOX gear... what a nerd LOL
Lastly, try this. It was right on the ball for me. It only takes like two seconds, if that.
You are striving to make favourable impressions all of the time and you are going out of your way to make the impression that you are something special. You are constantly on the watch to see how your friends and neighbours are reacting to your various ploys. But this is so unnecessary because most of the time you are in control of the situation - and you are, in the nicest sense of the word, a 'manipulator' because you use various strategies very cleverly in order to influence and obtain the necessary recognition.
Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be loved'.
Matters are not progressing as well as you would have hoped and you are having to make concessions - but you still believe that your goals are realistic it's just that people can't seem to see your point of view. You know what you want but you'll only accept suggestions under duress.
You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.
You need to be respected as an exceptional individual. This is the only way that you can hope to achieve the status that you wish to achieve. You set yourself very high standards - and come what may - you abide by them.
Good day, ¿verdad?