Feeling crappy, sorry guys.
Well, as you all would know, me and Kenny got into a fight last night. I am still pissed off and the entry he made did not make me feel any better. I feel like shit. I hate being that guy that is always depressed. I just got alot of shit going on. I am also not used to having freinds who gave a shit about my stupid bullshit, so no, sharing don't come easy. I have trust issues and don't let people in alot. I start a new job tomorrow and I don't even have the proper jeans since I am poor and my fat ass has to wear plus size. I might have to swipe my brother's. My mom has been sick for awhile now. I don't want to live in my parent's cold ass basement anymore! I feel bad, my parents are having a hard enough time supporting themselves, plus keeping the house, then their loser 27 year old daughter comes home with a husband and a cat. Issues. I love my family, and I would fuck up anyone who hurts them. I also hate this FUCKING SLOW ASS POP-UP COMPUTER. IT IS A PIECE OF SHIT.
Then there is my relianship with God. I have not gone to church in a year and I feel crappy about that. I feel like I have pissed Him off. I know He still loves me, why who knows. Ten years ago, this is so not how I saw my life. I love my husband and know he is trying but I really don't want him wasting his life delivering fucking overpriced subs. I am sorry. And if that makes me a bitch then so fucking be it. I can't wait till I go to school next fall. I also miss Katie, wish she would be here for Thanksgiving. I'm making the ham for Thanskgiving and corn bread. Yay! I love cooking. Well, I think that is all for now. Thanks for hearing me rant and rave. Almost in the Bell Jar, not quite. Love, Erin
Then there is my relianship with God. I have not gone to church in a year and I feel crappy about that. I feel like I have pissed Him off. I know He still loves me, why who knows. Ten years ago, this is so not how I saw my life. I love my husband and know he is trying but I really don't want him wasting his life delivering fucking overpriced subs. I am sorry. And if that makes me a bitch then so fucking be it. I can't wait till I go to school next fall. I also miss Katie, wish she would be here for Thanksgiving. I'm making the ham for Thanskgiving and corn bread. Yay! I love cooking. Well, I think that is all for now. Thanks for hearing me rant and rave. Almost in the Bell Jar, not quite. Love, Erin