This will make no sense to you

[erikawrites]

 I fell into an old habit.

I miss you when I smoke.

I'm sorry I missed paying you a visit. I've been under a few crap these past days. But please know you are always in my thoughts. Never have I not think of you since the day you left us all. I miss you everyday.  And everyday I will drown in the same sea of grief I fell into when you went away. I wish I could see you now. I wish you were here, or I wish I was there. Whichever. I just want to see you.

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Now I will remember you everytime I hear this song.

And that's not a good idea.

Because it'll be a reminder that we can never be.

And why is that, you might ask?

It's because you are you, and I am me.

The concept of you and me may not be too far-fetched

In a world where good things happen to me.

I do not want to continue learning more things about you,

but at the same time I want to know what makes you laugh.

I want to know what saddens you.

I want to listen when you speak.

I want to be there for you.

I want to be your friend.

I want to hear your views.

I want you to hear mine.

I want to stay home and persuade you to watch my favorite movies.

I want to watch your favorite movies,

and maybe cook dinner for you.

I want you to tell me the other songs you like.

I want to build a solid bond with you.

I want you to need me, but not in a crazy, psycho manner.

And the song's playing on repeat now.

I just can't help myself.

I'm falling

apart.

(and it's partly your fault, but I'll take full responsibility for this)

Enjoy the day! :smiles: