Oh what a tangled web i weave...
well, i've had the most screwed up week possible... i probably shouldn't even talk about it cuz i'll wind up getting in trouble somehow.
in the process of last weekend, i've managed to get myself in trouble with jon (he got in trouble with me first), i've lost his trust, i got drunk 2 days in a row (i swear, it's not a habit) and did something with someone in which was not really that smart and i'm paying for it now... why don't i leave that to all your imaginations?
needless to say though, i dug myself a ditch and i'm working to get out of it. not only do i have a shitload of stress and work on my plate, but i missed classes the other day and i'm so lost... i wish i had that time machine thing in clockstoppers.... god damn
well, the last thing i need right now is to lose out on more sleep, so i better call it a night while i still can. i need to dream about ways to bring things back to normal, even though that's asking a lot of someone. i need to take it all away, and fast.
jon's coming up this weekend, it's going to take every ounce of control i have not to cry when i see him, but i need to be strong, or i'll break down. i'm telling you, that wont fix things. on the bright side though, the gang is coming home this weekend and i can't wait to see them all, they always know how to fix things! maybe all ive been needing is their counciling...
my bed is beckoning...
i don't think i've ever sobbed so hard....
~Erika~
P.S.
Sorry it's so belated, but happy birthday sally!! i miss you!!!
in the process of last weekend, i've managed to get myself in trouble with jon (he got in trouble with me first), i've lost his trust, i got drunk 2 days in a row (i swear, it's not a habit) and did something with someone in which was not really that smart and i'm paying for it now... why don't i leave that to all your imaginations?
needless to say though, i dug myself a ditch and i'm working to get out of it. not only do i have a shitload of stress and work on my plate, but i missed classes the other day and i'm so lost... i wish i had that time machine thing in clockstoppers.... god damn
well, the last thing i need right now is to lose out on more sleep, so i better call it a night while i still can. i need to dream about ways to bring things back to normal, even though that's asking a lot of someone. i need to take it all away, and fast.
jon's coming up this weekend, it's going to take every ounce of control i have not to cry when i see him, but i need to be strong, or i'll break down. i'm telling you, that wont fix things. on the bright side though, the gang is coming home this weekend and i can't wait to see them all, they always know how to fix things! maybe all ive been needing is their counciling...
my bed is beckoning...
i don't think i've ever sobbed so hard....
~Erika~
P.S.
Sorry it's so belated, but happy birthday sally!! i miss you!!!