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I've come to realize that my problem is simply that I love too much.
I am so tired of giving everything I have, only to get nothing in return. I'm tired of being hurt, I'm tired of not being good enough, and I'm tired of having a broken heart.
I feel like I just keep making the same mistakes over and over. Believing things I shouldn't, being too trusting, and being optimistic when I shouldn't be.
Because I make the mistake of believing in love, I give myself completely and I love .. Completely...too much...and all that does is cause me pain.
I have never been in this much pain. And I've been through it before. But its never hurt this badly.
I don't know what to do with myself.
I'm done with love. It hurts too much to keep believing.
I can't help but feel that maybe I just don't deserve it. Myabe I'm not capable of being loved.
I really believed this was "it" this time...
I am so tired of giving everything I have, only to get nothing in return. I'm tired of being hurt, I'm tired of not being good enough, and I'm tired of having a broken heart.
I feel like I just keep making the same mistakes over and over. Believing things I shouldn't, being too trusting, and being optimistic when I shouldn't be.
Because I make the mistake of believing in love, I give myself completely and I love .. Completely...too much...and all that does is cause me pain.
I have never been in this much pain. And I've been through it before. But its never hurt this badly.
I don't know what to do with myself.
I'm done with love. It hurts too much to keep believing.
I can't help but feel that maybe I just don't deserve it. Myabe I'm not capable of being loved.
I really believed this was "it" this time...