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I think i'm going to abandon this thing. greatestjournal lets me have more icons for free and i actually know how to do some of the layout stuff. whatever. i don't know. i'm keeping luvmeanddespair up but this one just seems... not as cool to pour my heart out into. icons are useful that way. i'm babbling i know but i feel like shit and don't really want to talk. don't really want to do much really. want to be happy. fucking miss that stuff i had going on last week.
it's like i was on a drug...and now it's gone. and i want it back. i wish it was that easy--how pathetic is that? true though. if was just a matter of a drug of some sort (illegal or legal) then it's entirely possible for me to get more of said thing. but i can't do that with my writer-happiness. and it's pissing me off anf without it i feel dead--no wonder i got so depressed and sad. i had had that all the time and hten it went away. no wonder. christ i'm fucking screwed up. i don't even want to talk about it. i don't knwo how to talk about. it's jsut there. i feel hollowed out and...just.. blank. and any writer will tell you nothing's worse than a blank page...
want to be happy again.
lost_erien
it's like i was on a drug...and now it's gone. and i want it back. i wish it was that easy--how pathetic is that? true though. if was just a matter of a drug of some sort (illegal or legal) then it's entirely possible for me to get more of said thing. but i can't do that with my writer-happiness. and it's pissing me off anf without it i feel dead--no wonder i got so depressed and sad. i had had that all the time and hten it went away. no wonder. christ i'm fucking screwed up. i don't even want to talk about it. i don't knwo how to talk about. it's jsut there. i feel hollowed out and...just.. blank. and any writer will tell you nothing's worse than a blank page...
want to be happy again.
lost_erien