back again
listening to different music now. just a mix of stuff I burned. does anyone care about valentine's day? I remember in grade school passing around valentine cards, but beyone that I don't have any memories of it except when I was with stephanie in 1998. she bought stuff for the two of us, candy and glasses and everything seemed so nice. since then it hasn't meant a damn thing to me. I actually bought chocolate and little cards for all the women in my office this year. why? I don't know. I just felt like I wanted to do something nice. even if I don't like some of them all the time. I guess I feel like if I can do one little thing to make someone's day a little better I can feel good about that. some people never even get that from anyone. I usually don't. I sent valentine cards to some friends, some of which I DO "love" but only as friends. I don't really expect that I'll ever have another real relationship with anyone. I'm okay with that( I think!). I'm not really close to ANYONE. I'm just too messed up in some ways and I don't want anyone to have to be a part of that.