pictures faded but memories are forever
im locked on one feeling, im locked on one person. and i feel like it drives me nuts day in and out. i cant let go, i wanna be with this person but its not gonna happen. i love this girl and its jus so odd to be single and not have it in your reach. i jus wanna be happy like i was, i feel so gone unless im on something. like i feel i have no connection to anyone anymore. i miss everything. i miss my life before i went into surgery. it seems like i lost shit jus for disappearing to get healthy. like ive been single for a year and you would think it would jus disappear, i feel like ive been alone for so long. but if i look at it this way i have had people it jus was short lived with every single girl. i jus wish one would take the time like i have. ive gotten more irritable lately. like certain people or things said jus get on my nerves. i miss feeling wanted, i miss feeling needed. i havent felt that in so long. yeah its been there ABIT, but never full blown. i miss making someones day, i feel worthless and not wanted. i wish someone would wake me up from this nightmare, i feel like im a 2nd string QB to troy aikman. it jus doesnt get any better. i seriously need to leave, seriously jus need to be alone and not hear from anyone because it feels this way and im still in new jersey. just come home to me please?