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start work tonight...at scronic of all places
probably won't keep it though since his friend has a job waiting for me in okc. i think i might be moving back there soon, but only temporarily until i get a little cash saved up for my own place.
little nervous though...i think he's sincere about being sorry about the past, and wanting to stay close friends and move on from that....but there is that underlying, paranoid part of me that wonders if this is all just a set-up, to screw me over for breaking up him and his ex. although, if that were true, then he would be going all out to set me up...spending the money to come up here and see me, taking me out places, taking me on trips to the river...plus his sister tells me that he really did feel bad, like from the day it happened. but his ex had such a control thing over him since she was like his first serious love.
i dunno what to think. trying to weigh the pros and cons. i guess if i make a mistake and get screwed over, it'll just be another life lesson under my belt. at least i have rebuilt the relationship with my folks, and as long as i don't get in more legal or drug trouble, i will have them on my side if i fall again.
probably won't keep it though since his friend has a job waiting for me in okc. i think i might be moving back there soon, but only temporarily until i get a little cash saved up for my own place.
little nervous though...i think he's sincere about being sorry about the past, and wanting to stay close friends and move on from that....but there is that underlying, paranoid part of me that wonders if this is all just a set-up, to screw me over for breaking up him and his ex. although, if that were true, then he would be going all out to set me up...spending the money to come up here and see me, taking me out places, taking me on trips to the river...plus his sister tells me that he really did feel bad, like from the day it happened. but his ex had such a control thing over him since she was like his first serious love.
i dunno what to think. trying to weigh the pros and cons. i guess if i make a mistake and get screwed over, it'll just be another life lesson under my belt. at least i have rebuilt the relationship with my folks, and as long as i don't get in more legal or drug trouble, i will have them on my side if i fall again.