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Part of watching Ashlei prance around and sing the praises of Edmonton is hard to swallow. It is kind of hard to believe that not even a few years ago I was the one celebrating like that, only in the lockerroom. With my best friend and my teammates. Sharing a bond that at the time felt like it would never end. And don't get me wrong, part of it hasn't. I will still always have that connection with those guys. Just so many things have changed. I went to Europe, found myself miserable and came back. Now here I am, ready to give up the carrer I wanted for so long for the love of my life. I'm not changing my mine, i'm not having regrets. Yes, part of me prays that some deal can be worked out that somehow, I can play here. I'm not going back to Europe, not to save my life. I'll find something else to keep me on my toes and pass the time. Hell, I think Ash alone manages to do that. I guess...everything is just going to take some adjusting. It's all worth it.