when everything feels wrong
it sucks when someone who once told you that they love you, tells you that they hate you from the bottom of their heart. no matter how bad things have turned in that relationship, it still really sucks to read that in a text...to have such awful things said to you, its the worst feeling in the world... especially because you can remember a time when the only words out of her mouth were, "i love you so much, i have never met a man like you..." or something a long those lines...and now because of her actions, and the way things have turned out...she hates me. or at least she says she does...i dont know if i believe it...but its still a sucky thing to think about... i dunno.
im so confused about everything, i dont know what i want, i feel like i dont even really know who i am.
for the first time in my life, i am questioning beliefs, feelings, desires, goals...everything...i can't make a decision to save my life these days...ive become so apathetic about everything...i dont feel like myself.
sorry this entry was a bummer.
-Eric D (or at least his shell)
im so confused about everything, i dont know what i want, i feel like i dont even really know who i am.
for the first time in my life, i am questioning beliefs, feelings, desires, goals...everything...i can't make a decision to save my life these days...ive become so apathetic about everything...i dont feel like myself.
sorry this entry was a bummer.
-Eric D (or at least his shell)