30 Day OTP NSFW Challenge - Day One - Cuddles (Naked)
Author: ericasaur
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Ryan/Brendon, obvs
POV: Third, Brendon's
Summary: “You get to come up here and fuck me so what do you care?” he laughs humorlessly, closing his eyes.
Disclaimer: Fiction
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Brendon has this strategy. You see, everyone knows him as the cuddly, hyperactive, clingy kid - especially Ryan, who thinks that Brendon’s not ‘mature enough’ for him. Psh, yeah okay. Brendon supposes that’s why Ryan’s been crawling into his bunk and fucking him every night for the past week - because he’s not mature enough.
Brendon scoffs to himself just thinking about the whole ridiculous situation. Anyway, for the past two weeks, he’s continued to allow Ryan in his bed, sure, but then afterward he tells him to leave. Ryan will just kind of sit there, staring at Brendon with his mouth half-open and slowly exit the bunk, because as earlier mentioned, Brendon likes to cuddle.
His philosophy is that by denying Ryan his usual cuddly self and acting like an ‘adult’ about this, then Ryan will realize he’s an idiot and come begging Brendon to ‘please stop acting like this, Bren.’ He can hear it in his head now, Ryan’s confused tone. It’s only a matter of time.
Brendon knows that they’re just messing around and that what they have is not a relationship, according to Ryan. Brendon knows that, but that doesn’t make it any easier. Because he’s aware that Ryan doesn’t feel the way he does. He just wants sex. Brendon was never in it for that. He just wanted to be closer to Ryan.
It’s not as if the feelings slowly developed over time, no. Brendon’s been in love with his guitarist ever since he auditioned for the band and saw those honey-colored eyes for the first time. It’s only gotten worse since then. And surprisingly enough, it was Ryan who first kissed him in the lounge of the bus late one night when they were alone. Brendon had thought it was the day he’d been waiting all his life for, until it was over and Ryan murmured that maybe they could have a little friends with benefits arrangement - then Brendon realized that his feelings were one-sided.
Not only does he continue to not let Ryan stay the night in his bunk, but he starts brushing him off too, declining invitations to hang out, keeping his responses short and to the point. Ryan will be sitting on the couch watching a movie, and then ask Brendon if he wants to join him, holding up a blanket for him to snuggle underneath. Brendon just declines, walking away. Every time, he walks off leaving Ryan looking like he’s in the twilight zone.
Brendon’s lying in his bunk, staring up to the ceiling and vaguely registering the city lights flying by in a blur of color outside the window. He never can sleep when they’re on the road. There’s a knock on the frame of his bunk suddenly and he sighs, knowing that it’s Ryan coming to get what he wants from him. Brendon doesn’t move, not even sure if he’s going to let him in tonight. He doesn’t know how much longer he can do this for.
“Bren…?” comes an unsure voice, Ryan’s spindly fingers reaching to pull back the curtain a tiny bit and peeking around it. “Hey,” he says in a hushed tone, not wanting to wake up Jon or Spencer.
“Hi,” Brendon sighs, not even bothering to look at the older boy. Ryan stands there for a few seconds longer, chewing on his lip and staring at the ground before climbing into Brendon’s bunk without an invitation. He moves closer, his cheeks flushing a bit when he realizes that Brendon’s naked.
“What did I do?” Ryan whispers, turning Brendon’s head and forcing him to meet his eyes. “You’ve been ignoring me for weeks, and I just… I don’t understand what I did wrong,” he says, face contorted into worry and something dangerously close to upset.
“What do you mean?” Brendon asks, shrugging. “You get to come up here and fuck me so what do you care?” he laughs humorlessly, closing his eyes.
“Brendon,” Ryan says like he’s been slapped. “It’s not - I haven’t been just using you for sex this whole time, you know that right? I… it’s not like that,” he says softly, bringing a hand to Brendon’s face.
“I can’t do this anymore. It may be just a fling to you but I actually care about you, and I just - I can’t,” Brendon chokes out, turning on his side away from Ryan.
“Brendon, look,” Ryan starts, all but lying on top of him to see his face. “I know I said that this was just sex… but I only said that because I was scared for it to be anything else. I’m scared because we’re - we’re best friends and we’re sleeping together. I didn’t know what that meant. But I just can’t stop thinking about you. And I miss you,” he finishes in a small voice.
“We live in a small bus, Ryan, I’m always here,” Brendon points out.
“No, I miss you. I miss the pouting and the begging me to cuddle with you and the hyper bouncing, tearing apart the bus,” he laughs softly. “I’m sorry I said you weren’t mature enough for me. I was just making excuses.”
“So… you actually do like me?” Brendon clarifies. Ryan laughs, slipping his clothes off and joining Brendon under the covers.
“What do you think, silly?” he mumbles, putting his arms around Brendon’s waist and kissing the back of his neck. Brendon beams, turning around so he’s facing Ryan and kissing him with such force that it kind of hurts.
“Good because we haven’t cuddled in weeks and oh my god, it’s killing me and before I thought you only cuddled because you felt obligated but are you saying that you actually like it because-”
“Brendon, shut up,” Ryan laughs, leaning in to kiss him again, the slow slide of soft, smooth lips enough to muffle Brendon’s babbling until it stops altogether, now replaced with his tongue sliding into Ryan’s mouth. “The babbling, I missed that too,” Ryan smiles against his mouth, his hands moving down to Brendon’s ass. Brendon sighs contentedly, pressing another lingering kiss to Ryan’s mouth and then tucking his head into the crook of his neck, letting his hands glide over the smooth, pale skin of his back, and smiling when he feels arms tighten around him.
His totally knew his strategy would work.
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A/N: So I know this one wasn't smutty at all, but they will be, don't worry! Also this was rushed, written in like twenty minutes so sorry if it's not great. Comments are appreciated. ♥