You Were Only Waiting For This Moment To Be Free
There's a tiny little life inside of me ... I've seen you once and watched your tiny heart flutter. I've never met you but I'd protect you with everything I am and everything I have. We heard your heart beat and it forever changed us. Nothing will ever be the same. Nothing matters as much as you and you don't even have a name yet.
I've spent the last 15 weeks with you and have already learned so much. You've taught me that my body is capable of amazing things. You've taught me that your Dad is truly the most patient, understanding, and giving man I've ever met. You've taught me that even when life is hard it's worth fighting for. You've reminded me that life is amazing. And most importantly you've taught me that sometimes you have to wait patiently for amazing things to happen.
You're my little lemon. I pray you have your Fathers ability to love and forgive. I hope you have his ability to be calm. I hope you get my eyes and my love of life. I picture you as a tiny little talkative smarty pants who can justify anything. Your negotiation skills will I'm sure be the death of me, but I deserve it!
I can't wait to meet you but I don't want to rush this experience. I'm so sick but it's all worth it. I love you ferociously, sometimes it makes me cry! Because of you I will never take a single breath for granted.
I think you're a boy but if you're a girl your Daddy is done for! You are lucky because you have an amazing father. He's loving, and stoic. He's the most forgiving, strong man I've ever known. He has taken care of me since the day I met him, even when I made it an extremely difficult task. He will protect you with every fiber of his being. If you're ever scared he will make it better, I promise.
So many people are waiting anxiously to meet you. But right now you're all mine. We are on this little journey together. People can't help but notice I'm starting to show and everyone is talking about you. I'm sure you hear Grandmas constant chatter about you! You have three amazing beautiful nieces that can't wait to hold you and teach you all sorts of things! You're a Seahawks fan... I'm sure you got the memo Grandpa is going to teach you all about football! But for now it's just you and me. I'm Laying quietly at work thinking about you and breathing in just how blessed I am.
I love you little one,
Mom