so nuts.
so the last time i updated this thing was jensens birthday. like two years ago.
so much has changed, its not even funny. i graduated. lovedd. lost...loved again, moved out. had some shit go down, lost again and now im pregnant. with my ex boyfriend that already has two girls. he was gone for a month and it was probably the hardest but best way for me to get over him and be able to focus only on the baby and myself. i absolutely cannot wait until my angel is born. its going to be such an experience and im going to be the best mommy i possibly can be. darryl will be involved as much as he chooses to be. we'll see how the next few months go and figure everything out from there. its crazy how much has happened and how i could sit here and write in this for days but im sooo much about the future and going forward and not looking back anymore. everything happened...everything is said and done and thats all there is to it. nothing more, nothing less. i have a little one that needs 100% of my dedication and my main focus. i lovee knowing that i'm going to be a mommy, its going to be such an experience. darryl and i already decided on a girl name and we'll pick a boy name soon too. right now, things are good with us. but this is the first day i've talked to him so we'll see how the next months are up until the delivery. gahhhh. theres so much more to say but for now, im glad he's out, its a relief, he needs to get on his feet and get his life together and focus on his 3 kids he has not who the next biitch hes going to fuck. ugh. whatev! yay for my baby in my bellly. and i think ill start a new journal for it and tell everything. lovee.
so much has changed, its not even funny. i graduated. lovedd. lost...loved again, moved out. had some shit go down, lost again and now im pregnant. with my ex boyfriend that already has two girls. he was gone for a month and it was probably the hardest but best way for me to get over him and be able to focus only on the baby and myself. i absolutely cannot wait until my angel is born. its going to be such an experience and im going to be the best mommy i possibly can be. darryl will be involved as much as he chooses to be. we'll see how the next few months go and figure everything out from there. its crazy how much has happened and how i could sit here and write in this for days but im sooo much about the future and going forward and not looking back anymore. everything happened...everything is said and done and thats all there is to it. nothing more, nothing less. i have a little one that needs 100% of my dedication and my main focus. i lovee knowing that i'm going to be a mommy, its going to be such an experience. darryl and i already decided on a girl name and we'll pick a boy name soon too. right now, things are good with us. but this is the first day i've talked to him so we'll see how the next months are up until the delivery. gahhhh. theres so much more to say but for now, im glad he's out, its a relief, he needs to get on his feet and get his life together and focus on his 3 kids he has not who the next biitch hes going to fuck. ugh. whatev! yay for my baby in my bellly. and i think ill start a new journal for it and tell everything. lovee.