Mar 31, 2010 02:03
And now i know. Ive realised, ive seen clearly and truly how and what you really mean to me.
Nothing. You dont mean anything at all.
The only thing ive regretted is that i had lost too much of my own tears, these 3 long years. Goodness its embarrassing when i come to think of it. and not to mention my own stupidity. and much less offer a third chance.
Read if you wish:
I remembered i told a certain someone just last week (the person reading this would know who la), i described myself as successful... then for a moment i paused, and thought about it. No, its not successful. Rather, the word is satisfied. Im actually satisfied with my lot in life for once. Does it matter if your friendship/relationship is not going well? But most importantly, what matters is whether, do you think you yourself is doing well? To me, success only comes when i have accomplished my highest personal achievement that i have set for myself. and this achivement would have nothing to do with anybody else except maybe to my parents. Those younger than me (or those who have a mindset which has distinct dissimilarities from mine), would they find a time where they would be satisfied at least for a month? I think not. Being satisfied does not mean i would stop where i am now. obviously. If i could, i would make things better for myself. Myself, being the imperative word. of course, im selfish. Isnt everyone the same? Dont accuse me of something which i have already admitted to myself. Not a form of complacency if i may add, and since this has nothing to do with you, why do you bother judging me?
I hope the above paragraph gives you an idea on how to write your report/thesis on the contradiction of human behaviour.
See you in Europe sometime soon, but first, i have to get my Manchester United women's cut jersey.
Confusion, no? :)