man.. i need to change some things in my life

[ericahope05]

Well.. i totally had a eye-opening/life changing experience from one of my friends.. about somethings.. and i totally realized that people use me all the time.. and i don't stand up for myself.. i also realized that most of the time i put on a fake smile for people.. its wierd.. to know that your doing that.. I mean its not that i'm not happy.. cus i usually am.. ist jes that when i'm sad or depressed at the time i really am sad.. or i'll let the smallest things bother me.. it sucks.. but i dunno.. so i'm sick of being everybody's doormat.. so that stops TODAY... i had a long talk w/rylie about it yesterday.. and i went into mrs.knowles room and talk'd with her today.. like.. i never knew how much it bothered me.. until i was talkin to her about it and i started tearing up.. i dunno.. im' really not an emotional person.. either.. i guess this is something that bothers me..
Well whatever.. i'm out i'll post later.. gotta go to lunch