i lied, im bitter
i love to write,
Its the best form of therapy. I promise you that.
Ive come to realize that I have forgotten about how many people care about me. Even if they are not always around. I love having friends. I love confiding in friends and I like that they feel safe confiding in me.
Despite all of my emotions and feeling more hurt than I have ever felt in my entire life. Tonight was a good night.
It reassured me of so many things. Many things I have forgotten about myself. It hurts not to have someone to love, when you've had it so long. It hurts to not say I love you too. Everyone tells me things will get better, and I honestly believe them. Its just really hard to believe it right now. Its amazing how many hands reached out to help me up when im down with no second thought. and the person that I thought cared about me most: his hand wasnt there.
Its reasurring to hear everyone tell me that they wont leave me alone through this. Its sincerity in people that I miss. It gives me hope that Im not going to give up on love so easily. I really believe that somewhere their is honestly and truth and that love is real. I'll be ready to try again someday when the time is right and it will be amazing. I know it will be. I'll just let it find me- because you cant go looking for love, its just something that happens.
it didnt use to be this hard to fly solo. but giving up isnt really my thing. I think maybe i can learn to like it again. even love it. I like to think of it as his loss and my gain.
I start school tomorrow!!!!!!
I hope its neat- im excited for new.
I think I could write forever, even if no one ever read a word I said. There is something about seeing the words in front of me that makes me feel real. its like putting all of the confusing thoughts and emotions together for a clear result. I cant describe it. but i should get sleep. Tomorrows a big day. tomorrow is a good day.
goodnight,
love always,
"erica-amazing"
haha
oh, and R. Kelly's, sex in the kitchen is probably my new favorite song. LISTEN TO IT. it will change your life forever! or at least make you smile and laugh. A LOT.
then end is the best part! you wont regret it. I swear by the moon and the stars!
Its the best form of therapy. I promise you that.
Ive come to realize that I have forgotten about how many people care about me. Even if they are not always around. I love having friends. I love confiding in friends and I like that they feel safe confiding in me.
Despite all of my emotions and feeling more hurt than I have ever felt in my entire life. Tonight was a good night.
It reassured me of so many things. Many things I have forgotten about myself. It hurts not to have someone to love, when you've had it so long. It hurts to not say I love you too. Everyone tells me things will get better, and I honestly believe them. Its just really hard to believe it right now. Its amazing how many hands reached out to help me up when im down with no second thought. and the person that I thought cared about me most: his hand wasnt there.
Its reasurring to hear everyone tell me that they wont leave me alone through this. Its sincerity in people that I miss. It gives me hope that Im not going to give up on love so easily. I really believe that somewhere their is honestly and truth and that love is real. I'll be ready to try again someday when the time is right and it will be amazing. I know it will be. I'll just let it find me- because you cant go looking for love, its just something that happens.
it didnt use to be this hard to fly solo. but giving up isnt really my thing. I think maybe i can learn to like it again. even love it. I like to think of it as his loss and my gain.
I start school tomorrow!!!!!!
I hope its neat- im excited for new.
I think I could write forever, even if no one ever read a word I said. There is something about seeing the words in front of me that makes me feel real. its like putting all of the confusing thoughts and emotions together for a clear result. I cant describe it. but i should get sleep. Tomorrows a big day. tomorrow is a good day.
goodnight,
love always,
"erica-amazing"
haha
oh, and R. Kelly's, sex in the kitchen is probably my new favorite song. LISTEN TO IT. it will change your life forever! or at least make you smile and laugh. A LOT.
then end is the best part! you wont regret it. I swear by the moon and the stars!