I bet no one reads this, i know this is going to be long
I havent slept for days. literally. Im sure by now it has been over 48 hours. Im so awake. my heart hasnt slowed down. I have no appetite.
The last two days have been the quickest days of my life. I feel like it was too quick to even of really happened. How could we fit so many things into such little time.
My body is so tired. Im sleeping on the outside and wide awake on the inside.
I've got my friends feeding me water through caps and convincing me to eat oat mill. Ive been stuck to a wall for ten days straight, physically paralyzed and mentally stimulated for 4 hours, dancing with strangers, robbed, watched, felt what breathing should really feel like, cried, smiled because i know it makes them feel important, any bit could really help, i want to help.
I've lied through my teeth, but you dont seem to mind, because I have such a beautiful smile...you'll do anything to make a little conversation,if i was going to guess-Maybe you just want to tell me im different, that you've never felt so close to someone you just met, I just get you, you cant stop thinking about me. I've realized lately that most guys are really one in the same. so god please, spare me the details and the romance novel lines..It would save me from having to pretend I believed in that anymore. Im sorry,I wish I could help you. but I have nothing left to give. I know matter how much you swear you do,you dont know who I am. but you want to so bad and I dont know why.
I am going to write a book someday, and they are going to turn it into a movie. It makes perfect sense. It will be one of those books/movies that is more than just that. It will be more like a new experience from a different and new point of view. I have no idea how it will begin, but I know exactly how it will end. with: this is the first day of my life.
The last two days have been the quickest days of my life. I feel like it was too quick to even of really happened. How could we fit so many things into such little time.
My body is so tired. Im sleeping on the outside and wide awake on the inside.
I've got my friends feeding me water through caps and convincing me to eat oat mill. Ive been stuck to a wall for ten days straight, physically paralyzed and mentally stimulated for 4 hours, dancing with strangers, robbed, watched, felt what breathing should really feel like, cried, smiled because i know it makes them feel important, any bit could really help, i want to help.
I've lied through my teeth, but you dont seem to mind, because I have such a beautiful smile...you'll do anything to make a little conversation,if i was going to guess-Maybe you just want to tell me im different, that you've never felt so close to someone you just met, I just get you, you cant stop thinking about me. I've realized lately that most guys are really one in the same. so god please, spare me the details and the romance novel lines..It would save me from having to pretend I believed in that anymore. Im sorry,I wish I could help you. but I have nothing left to give. I know matter how much you swear you do,you dont know who I am. but you want to so bad and I dont know why.
I am going to write a book someday, and they are going to turn it into a movie. It makes perfect sense. It will be one of those books/movies that is more than just that. It will be more like a new experience from a different and new point of view. I have no idea how it will begin, but I know exactly how it will end. with: this is the first day of my life.