was up
Im sitting at the computer, and im just thinking, im kinda scared about cj. i realy like him but he's seeing other people right now and i dunno like im usually ok with i like i knew it from the begining but like when i think about the stuff he says to me and when he kisses me it makes me think what if he's doing and saying the same exact things to all those other girls too... i mean, he did say that he's the most seriouse about a relationship with me, and the other girls he's seein are realy just not clicking with him as much as i am... And i mean he calls me every day and always makes sure he sees me... i dunno im just scared that im gunna fall for him BIG time and theres nothing i can do about it cause he's not ready, or he found some one like 10 times better than me, like a skinny little blonde girl with like blue eyes and shes a chearleader and crap like that, i just don't wanna get hurt by him finding like a chick who's exactly what he usually goes for. I mean i am ok with the situation i mean i don't wanna get into a seriouse relationship right now any ways its good for me to date him i just don't wanna get hurt or my hopes up. i mean i see him every day and.. I guess i just feal like its praubly too good to be true..