Fic: Childehood Studies
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Fandom: SVN
Character: Pam
Summary: My Maker gets what he wants. Pam muses on learning to be a vampire, Eric and Sookie, and what it is to want.
Word Count: 300ish
Rating: G
Childehood Studies
Since being turned, I have learned many things but this was the first: my Maker gets what he wants.
I understood this before I understood hunger for blood or fear of daylight. Eric gets what he wants.
He wanted me to survive my first year. An impressive feat for a young, blood-crazed vampire, especially a female. Back then, suspicion fell quickly on a woman who kept mixed company by night and who did not step in time with the church bells.
My Maker's voice guided me then, telling me when to be cautious and when to be free, drawing the fine line between restraint and repression. One meant eventual control, the other, inevitable chaos.
He told me to feed before him. Casually. Like each syllable was not a tipping point. Like the world did not hang on his voice. Like my blood would not stop at his command.
He wanted me to learn to want things beyond the blood. It is a pity, he said, when creatures so powerful as we cannot see beyond the next meal.
The lesson was hard. How does one learn to want something more than the life that chases itself around veins, rich and undiluted?
So I watched my Maker. He wanted freedom, so he tied himself to the land. He wanted power, so he submitted to a king. He wanted her ….
I have a lot to learn still. I do not quite understand it yet how anything, finally, could be about more than the blood. My Maker, you see, always gets what he wants.
But this time, I think he wants her.
I think he wants to be hers.
I think he wants the sun.
End.
Fandom: SVN
Character: Pam
Summary: My Maker gets what he wants. Pam muses on learning to be a vampire, Eric and Sookie, and what it is to want.
Word Count: 300ish
Rating: G
Childehood Studies
Since being turned, I have learned many things but this was the first: my Maker gets what he wants.
I understood this before I understood hunger for blood or fear of daylight. Eric gets what he wants.
He wanted me to survive my first year. An impressive feat for a young, blood-crazed vampire, especially a female. Back then, suspicion fell quickly on a woman who kept mixed company by night and who did not step in time with the church bells.
My Maker's voice guided me then, telling me when to be cautious and when to be free, drawing the fine line between restraint and repression. One meant eventual control, the other, inevitable chaos.
He told me to feed before him. Casually. Like each syllable was not a tipping point. Like the world did not hang on his voice. Like my blood would not stop at his command.
He wanted me to learn to want things beyond the blood. It is a pity, he said, when creatures so powerful as we cannot see beyond the next meal.
The lesson was hard. How does one learn to want something more than the life that chases itself around veins, rich and undiluted?
So I watched my Maker. He wanted freedom, so he tied himself to the land. He wanted power, so he submitted to a king. He wanted her ….
I have a lot to learn still. I do not quite understand it yet how anything, finally, could be about more than the blood. My Maker, you see, always gets what he wants.
But this time, I think he wants her.
I think he wants to be hers.
I think he wants the sun.
End.