Your Fuckin Blood
Well i dont know where to even start today. God im so depressed its not even funny. OK lets start out the day ok i woke up at like 8:30 and i called michael triveno which was kool cause then at like 11 me and him went and got somethin to eat at walmart and i ran into my boss and he was kool (Mike my boss) then we all sat down and had some mcdonalds. i ate a number 2 and a 10 piece chicken nugget meal. then holly and jessica came over and picked me up and then we went to hollys house. Then when we got there me and her threw the football for a good 20 minutes me and her just talkin and ask questions. Well then she told me that she slept with another guy. And i was like well who was it and she wouldnt tell me then she finally told me and do u know who it was. It was my fuckin brother (Bryan). Well immeadetly i was mad and i was about to blow up then i took me a good deep breath and i just sat down and pretty much just sat there tears droppin from my eyes sorta like right now. Then when she told me i was very dissapointed in her but more in my older brother i mean he is my own fuckin blood u dont do that to family. But i just know right now that holly is happy and she has told me she wants to be with me forever and she will never do that again she said she just wasnt thinking correctly. The only thing i have lost was a older brother that was never there for me so i rele have only lost a aquatance. Bryan im not sure what u was thinking but dad hates u and i hate u mom dont know and hopefully she wont ever find out. I mean i have questions and id love to throw down with u man but it still dont solve the problem so pretty much this is it Fuck U and i hope u have a very nice life cause our family is no more its all my family mom and dad and me our a family not u and me and mom and dad it dont work that way. U will sometime soon find out if u hear from me but more than likely u wont hear from me cause im disgusted with u. Holly i dont know where we stand but i know where i stand and i think we stand togethor. i know if u didnt tell me this then things wouldnt be the same but i know now that u do care and someday we will be togethor as a couple who live togethor and right now i know we cant have that because of my age but sometime very soon u will be staying over the night and thats a promise. I will make u stay the night sometime soon cause i cant have u just leaving at like 3 or 4 in the morning i need some1 to sleep in the bed with and cuddle with. Babe i love u and i always will care for u that way just right now im feeling alittle shocked and i need u more than ever to love on me and spend time with me any chance we get. Im trying to say babe i just need u to show me the physcal way babe i know ive seen u emotional after today but mentally im here on this journal and i feel alot better now. But im still needing the physcal part if u can give me that then do so plz.
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